SelfDoubter
21-09-16, 19:25
Hi I’m new here and reaching out as I am totally stupid and feeling totally disappointed at myself! :doh:
I have lived with low self esteem, no confidence and GAD for going on 20 years, I finally realised I needed help earlier this year so I saw my doctor and I am finally starting intensive CBT with a lovely therapist ….But it’s going to be a long process.
Anyway, I’m struggling today. I need someone to talk to to just stop me going mad. I said something to a supplier at work today I shouldn’t have mentioned, I then got the conversation back and smoothed it over but I just keep going over and over and over the conversation in my head and feel sick to my stomach about it! I feel like crying inside but can’t as my husband and daughter are sat here and I feel like crying and crying and that I’m going to loose my job and I am stupid and pathetic and don’t deserve how good my company and boss are to me. :frown:
I’m also feeling poop cos I keep forgetting things, all the time!! I am on some medication to help with the physical feelings I get with my anxiety and worry so I’m not sure if it’s that, or that I’m just rubbish at things argh I can’t stop thinking what I am thinking and it’s driving me mad!:weep:
Sorry to go on and on I just need an outlet or I am going to go mad!
Sorry x
I have lived with low self esteem, no confidence and GAD for going on 20 years, I finally realised I needed help earlier this year so I saw my doctor and I am finally starting intensive CBT with a lovely therapist ….But it’s going to be a long process.
Anyway, I’m struggling today. I need someone to talk to to just stop me going mad. I said something to a supplier at work today I shouldn’t have mentioned, I then got the conversation back and smoothed it over but I just keep going over and over and over the conversation in my head and feel sick to my stomach about it! I feel like crying inside but can’t as my husband and daughter are sat here and I feel like crying and crying and that I’m going to loose my job and I am stupid and pathetic and don’t deserve how good my company and boss are to me. :frown:
I’m also feeling poop cos I keep forgetting things, all the time!! I am on some medication to help with the physical feelings I get with my anxiety and worry so I’m not sure if it’s that, or that I’m just rubbish at things argh I can’t stop thinking what I am thinking and it’s driving me mad!:weep:
Sorry to go on and on I just need an outlet or I am going to go mad!
Sorry x