Ryanr1987
23-09-16, 12:46
Heya
My names Ryan, I'm 29 years old and for as long as I can remember I've always had a terrible fear of death - mainly of cancer.
I'm generally a laid back, happy person but inside I'm constantly riddled with the thought I've got cancer.
This started when I first developed a lump under my arm when I was about 13-14 and then started thinking about death a lot. I went to the doctor who diagnosed it as a Cyst. At 15-16 I had fear's of Colon Cancer which ended up drifting to the back of my mind.
I had on and off fears which subsided again for a while. At 23 years old I began to have a loss of appetite which ended up being for 6 months - I also had a long term cough which I was convinced was lung cancer and Colon cancer mets. I had a Colonoscopy which was fine and again everything ended up fine for a while. This year has been the worst it's ever been at 28+29. I was convinced I had Melanoma 4-5 times, 4 different moles..2 removed both benign but I was convinced at least one was. I have had derm visits about 4 times this year all moles checked and non concerning.
4 weeks ago I had symptoms of Prostate and kidney cancer again convinced I had it(still get symptoms) I researched that Prostate cancer at my age doesn't even have statistics so the worry was a lot less.
The past 2 weeks(The worst I've felt) I'm convinced I have a brain tumour. I developed a Metallic taste in my mouth and have been having phantom smells of chemicals that only I can smell...I also have been getting headaches on one side. I've been getting dizziness when I lie on my back and then jump up too quickly with some weird head pressure and pains. I've been getting Deja Vu a lot recently and the phantom smells and taste have not gone away, the head pains are near my left temporal Lobe which matches the symptoms to a te.
Now I know that my anxiety is bad, but these symptoms are real and they match up absolutely perfect. I've reached the point where I'm near giving up on life, I nearly didn't go into work today. I've shut myself away form my friends, I want to be alone and just waste away because I'm so certain I've got this brain tumour or mets(I've had a cough fr about 2 weeks)
I've actually got a referral to help with my anxiety - this was booked before all these symptoms. I really just don't know what to do, where to go and how to handle all this.
My names Ryan, I'm 29 years old and for as long as I can remember I've always had a terrible fear of death - mainly of cancer.
I'm generally a laid back, happy person but inside I'm constantly riddled with the thought I've got cancer.
This started when I first developed a lump under my arm when I was about 13-14 and then started thinking about death a lot. I went to the doctor who diagnosed it as a Cyst. At 15-16 I had fear's of Colon Cancer which ended up drifting to the back of my mind.
I had on and off fears which subsided again for a while. At 23 years old I began to have a loss of appetite which ended up being for 6 months - I also had a long term cough which I was convinced was lung cancer and Colon cancer mets. I had a Colonoscopy which was fine and again everything ended up fine for a while. This year has been the worst it's ever been at 28+29. I was convinced I had Melanoma 4-5 times, 4 different moles..2 removed both benign but I was convinced at least one was. I have had derm visits about 4 times this year all moles checked and non concerning.
4 weeks ago I had symptoms of Prostate and kidney cancer again convinced I had it(still get symptoms) I researched that Prostate cancer at my age doesn't even have statistics so the worry was a lot less.
The past 2 weeks(The worst I've felt) I'm convinced I have a brain tumour. I developed a Metallic taste in my mouth and have been having phantom smells of chemicals that only I can smell...I also have been getting headaches on one side. I've been getting dizziness when I lie on my back and then jump up too quickly with some weird head pressure and pains. I've been getting Deja Vu a lot recently and the phantom smells and taste have not gone away, the head pains are near my left temporal Lobe which matches the symptoms to a te.
Now I know that my anxiety is bad, but these symptoms are real and they match up absolutely perfect. I've reached the point where I'm near giving up on life, I nearly didn't go into work today. I've shut myself away form my friends, I want to be alone and just waste away because I'm so certain I've got this brain tumour or mets(I've had a cough fr about 2 weeks)
I've actually got a referral to help with my anxiety - this was booked before all these symptoms. I really just don't know what to do, where to go and how to handle all this.