shotokansho
23-09-16, 21:06
Hey all.
I've been single for 10 years or more apart from the occasional fling. I've not felt anything for anyone all this time and decided that I was going to be single forever. A few weeks ago I went to benidorm with a big bunch of friends. I ended up with one of the guys, we've been friends 10 years.
It was completely bizarre. He kissed me half way through the holiday and it's like a light switched on. I felt it immediately and knew it was right. It felt so perfect and natural. We've been together ever since that moment. But there is a problem, I don't let him see me naked or touch my scars. They are hideous and I don't understand why he wants to be with me. We've been friends 10 years so he does know about my self harm history but I still can't bear him to see my body.
We've only been together a few weeks but I have never felt like this before and im already worried about losing him over my MH. He's told me that he wants to be with me and all that is just detail, but what if he asks me to promise never to self harm again?
He's such an amazing guy and makes me laugh, hes brilliant with my sons too. I just don't know what I'm meant to do with all these new emotions. I mean how are you actually meant to have a relationship without ruining it?
I've been single for 10 years or more apart from the occasional fling. I've not felt anything for anyone all this time and decided that I was going to be single forever. A few weeks ago I went to benidorm with a big bunch of friends. I ended up with one of the guys, we've been friends 10 years.
It was completely bizarre. He kissed me half way through the holiday and it's like a light switched on. I felt it immediately and knew it was right. It felt so perfect and natural. We've been together ever since that moment. But there is a problem, I don't let him see me naked or touch my scars. They are hideous and I don't understand why he wants to be with me. We've been friends 10 years so he does know about my self harm history but I still can't bear him to see my body.
We've only been together a few weeks but I have never felt like this before and im already worried about losing him over my MH. He's told me that he wants to be with me and all that is just detail, but what if he asks me to promise never to self harm again?
He's such an amazing guy and makes me laugh, hes brilliant with my sons too. I just don't know what I'm meant to do with all these new emotions. I mean how are you actually meant to have a relationship without ruining it?