steveo
28-03-07, 23:48
There has been something that has been bothering me my whole life. Any help or advise off ANYONE would be so greatly apreciated.
Im 22, and my first 'panic attack' was at the age of about 7. It was late at night (or it was for a 7year old) and I was in a village hall type thing. Can't remember the occasion but I do remember a busy room full of adults and children, talking and playing and socialising. Being 7, I was off playing with all the other kids. I don't remember alot about that evening, but I do remember that I suddenly felt ,what I now know to be a depersonalization, derealization, feeling of unreality type symptom, which of course made me run to my parents, screaming and crying the whole way. After that, I just had a fear of that symptom happening again. Ive had panic attacks all my life and a common situation for me would be something like a room full of people or maybe being in a very large crowd, but my fear is, that I don't want that derealisation feeling.
It seems to me that the derealisation feeling has caused me to have panic attacks, rather than it JUST being a symptom of a panic attack. Its very confusing to type down exactly what I mean. Whenever I go out now, I just fear that feeling happening to me. I can handle the other symptoms of a panic attack. I have never had trouble breathing or any of the other 'normal' panic attack symptoms. They come on mildly after the derealisation feelings comes in. Sometimes that feeling will come on at the blink of an eye and leave when I rub my eyes. I don't fully understand that symptom and... I don't know.... I would just like to hear what people have to say about it.
Thankyou to anyone who has taken the time to read my badly spelt and confusing story!
Steveo
Im 22, and my first 'panic attack' was at the age of about 7. It was late at night (or it was for a 7year old) and I was in a village hall type thing. Can't remember the occasion but I do remember a busy room full of adults and children, talking and playing and socialising. Being 7, I was off playing with all the other kids. I don't remember alot about that evening, but I do remember that I suddenly felt ,what I now know to be a depersonalization, derealization, feeling of unreality type symptom, which of course made me run to my parents, screaming and crying the whole way. After that, I just had a fear of that symptom happening again. Ive had panic attacks all my life and a common situation for me would be something like a room full of people or maybe being in a very large crowd, but my fear is, that I don't want that derealisation feeling.
It seems to me that the derealisation feeling has caused me to have panic attacks, rather than it JUST being a symptom of a panic attack. Its very confusing to type down exactly what I mean. Whenever I go out now, I just fear that feeling happening to me. I can handle the other symptoms of a panic attack. I have never had trouble breathing or any of the other 'normal' panic attack symptoms. They come on mildly after the derealisation feelings comes in. Sometimes that feeling will come on at the blink of an eye and leave when I rub my eyes. I don't fully understand that symptom and... I don't know.... I would just like to hear what people have to say about it.
Thankyou to anyone who has taken the time to read my badly spelt and confusing story!
Steveo