Alonewithanxiety
26-09-16, 23:31
Hi. Im Avril. My husband died 4 years ago from a sudden heart attack. He was 44. My eldest daughter (13 at the time) was at home with him and had to dial 999. He actually died in the ambulance, not at home so she wasnt with him, I was.
About 10 months after he died, her panic attacks set in. She firmly believed she was having a heart attack. Several A&E trips later and help from a physio for breathing, she seemed better. About a year later she started feeling dizzy. Eventually this dizziness overtook her every movement. I have been to the GP many times, seen an ENT specialist and done countless trips to A&E with a very frightened, often verbally abusive teenager. The only thing that was ever found was low iron levels. She turns 18 in 3 weeks. Today we got her latest results back from her iron levels which are now normal. This was always my saviour. I could convince her that her dizziness, neck pain, weakness, pale skin and tiredness were due to the Iron. Now I cant use that.
This evening has been bad. She is totally convinced she is dying of a brain tumour that in 2 years has not been diagnosed. The fear I can deal with, Im convinced the symptoms are anxiety related. But she is so verbally abusive towards me and 2 weeks ago violently pushed me off her bed, resulting in a bruised arm.
Thats my back story. Other than to say I have 2 other children who are 16 and 14 and a dog!
feel very alone and so tired. Its a nightly battle with demons I cant control
About 10 months after he died, her panic attacks set in. She firmly believed she was having a heart attack. Several A&E trips later and help from a physio for breathing, she seemed better. About a year later she started feeling dizzy. Eventually this dizziness overtook her every movement. I have been to the GP many times, seen an ENT specialist and done countless trips to A&E with a very frightened, often verbally abusive teenager. The only thing that was ever found was low iron levels. She turns 18 in 3 weeks. Today we got her latest results back from her iron levels which are now normal. This was always my saviour. I could convince her that her dizziness, neck pain, weakness, pale skin and tiredness were due to the Iron. Now I cant use that.
This evening has been bad. She is totally convinced she is dying of a brain tumour that in 2 years has not been diagnosed. The fear I can deal with, Im convinced the symptoms are anxiety related. But she is so verbally abusive towards me and 2 weeks ago violently pushed me off her bed, resulting in a bruised arm.
Thats my back story. Other than to say I have 2 other children who are 16 and 14 and a dog!
feel very alone and so tired. Its a nightly battle with demons I cant control