KatiePink
04-10-16, 14:45
Hi everyone,
Just wanted to update on my struggle with HA. Recently things have being going well in my life :ohmy::ohmy::ohmy:
Shock horror! That never happens hehe
So obviously my anxiety has decided this feels unsettling.
Let me explain a bit.. i have recently started to make progress in a personal area of my life that has been a big dark cloud following me around for many years(wont go into details) and i'm so so happy and can finally see a happy ending.
On top of this i was recently offered an A-MAZING job, i went for this job not thinking i would have a chance, i was sweating, shaking and just terrible before the interview, but i did surprisingly well.
They called me the same day and offered me the position subject to references and a dbs check. I was in such shock. I start at the end of this month.
This job will completely change my life, so there is so much anxiety around this, i've been in and out of work for quite some time due to anxiety so my mind is in overdrive "It needs to go right"!
First off my worries were regarding the actual job and something going wrong, i.e one of the references they want for a similar position i held over 5 years ago, they are having trouble contacting, due to the company no longer operating, i am fearing that they will just say we can't have you anymore lol! My partner is great and is constantly the rational one.
Then my HA started to get more severe, after the interview i noticed i had very bad neck and shoulder tension(again) it got so bad that i could hardly move, strange feelings in my face and shoulders, tingling, sharp shooting pains, mainly the front and side of my neck is extremely tense. Ive been doing what i can to correct this, and it has improved slightly.
I can't seem to shake the thought that something else may be causing my neck problems, it's worrying me that i will get really bad for when i start this job and ruin everything.
I know my posture can be bad, and i have lumbar lordosis(self diagnosed) but it's pretty damn obvious, i use my phone far too much and therefore believe i have bad neck posture. So why can't i accept that this is all it is and i can correct it?
I keep convincing myself its a spine condition or something degenerative.
I'm having heart worries too and am just in a place where i need to stop this health anxiety in it's tracks before it sods everything up.
I feel like one part of my brain wants to ruin a good thing all the time and i need to fight that little ***** :roflmao:
Any tips, advice welcome
:)
Just wanted to update on my struggle with HA. Recently things have being going well in my life :ohmy::ohmy::ohmy:
Shock horror! That never happens hehe
So obviously my anxiety has decided this feels unsettling.
Let me explain a bit.. i have recently started to make progress in a personal area of my life that has been a big dark cloud following me around for many years(wont go into details) and i'm so so happy and can finally see a happy ending.
On top of this i was recently offered an A-MAZING job, i went for this job not thinking i would have a chance, i was sweating, shaking and just terrible before the interview, but i did surprisingly well.
They called me the same day and offered me the position subject to references and a dbs check. I was in such shock. I start at the end of this month.
This job will completely change my life, so there is so much anxiety around this, i've been in and out of work for quite some time due to anxiety so my mind is in overdrive "It needs to go right"!
First off my worries were regarding the actual job and something going wrong, i.e one of the references they want for a similar position i held over 5 years ago, they are having trouble contacting, due to the company no longer operating, i am fearing that they will just say we can't have you anymore lol! My partner is great and is constantly the rational one.
Then my HA started to get more severe, after the interview i noticed i had very bad neck and shoulder tension(again) it got so bad that i could hardly move, strange feelings in my face and shoulders, tingling, sharp shooting pains, mainly the front and side of my neck is extremely tense. Ive been doing what i can to correct this, and it has improved slightly.
I can't seem to shake the thought that something else may be causing my neck problems, it's worrying me that i will get really bad for when i start this job and ruin everything.
I know my posture can be bad, and i have lumbar lordosis(self diagnosed) but it's pretty damn obvious, i use my phone far too much and therefore believe i have bad neck posture. So why can't i accept that this is all it is and i can correct it?
I keep convincing myself its a spine condition or something degenerative.
I'm having heart worries too and am just in a place where i need to stop this health anxiety in it's tracks before it sods everything up.
I feel like one part of my brain wants to ruin a good thing all the time and i need to fight that little ***** :roflmao:
Any tips, advice welcome
:)