serendipity1996
05-10-16, 03:14
I've been feeling very anxious and stressed at the moment - something which has been severely compounded in the past few days. I have recently moved abroad to Germany to do an Erasmus year at a university there so the change has been quite stressful and I have been feeling terribly homesick. Well, a few days ago I discovered a smooth circular bald patch on my scalp which I think I have had a for a while but for some reason it didn't really register as a cause for concern before. My brain seems to have picked up on that worry after showing it to a friend who said that it was quite bad and anxiety has kicked in hard. (btw I'm a female not male in case that helps).
And then suddenly, what feels like literally overnight my hair has changed texture radically - my thick hair has suddenly become the polar opposite - it feels very wispy and thin and delicate especially at the back. It honestly feels like I've lost so much hair - yet I'm not noticing clumping or significant fallout on pillows, in the shower etc so I am quite stumped as to what is going on. It has never felt this weak before ever.
I can single out a number of factors which may have contributed to this - I've spent the past three days basically holed up in my room and not eating very much. It could be a chronic lack of sleep. Stress or anxiety. I've also suffered from a dry flaky scalp. But I feel like I can't keep it together anymore, I'm having a meltdown. In my mind, I may as well already be bald. It doesn't help that I've spent hours scaring myself silly with alopecia stories of women who went completely bald in a week, finding myself on balding support groups at 2am. I'm going to walk in to a doctor's today and see if I can get an appointment - added to my stress is the fact that I'm in a foreign country, don't really know how to navigate the healthcare system, have to deal with the language barrier (although hopefully it won't be hard to find an english speaking doctor where I am). My family has no history of balding but that doesn't assuage my fears. My mind is basically programmed to foresee the worst case scenario.
I've been feeling utterly utterly miserable - I cry every single day, call home a lot, feel homesick and alone and completely out of my depth. I feel at the end of my tether. I even tried to call samaritans only to discover that I can't call from abroad so I feel I have nobody to talk to.
Just wondering if anyone else on here has ever had a similar fear particularly regarding hair loss?
And then suddenly, what feels like literally overnight my hair has changed texture radically - my thick hair has suddenly become the polar opposite - it feels very wispy and thin and delicate especially at the back. It honestly feels like I've lost so much hair - yet I'm not noticing clumping or significant fallout on pillows, in the shower etc so I am quite stumped as to what is going on. It has never felt this weak before ever.
I can single out a number of factors which may have contributed to this - I've spent the past three days basically holed up in my room and not eating very much. It could be a chronic lack of sleep. Stress or anxiety. I've also suffered from a dry flaky scalp. But I feel like I can't keep it together anymore, I'm having a meltdown. In my mind, I may as well already be bald. It doesn't help that I've spent hours scaring myself silly with alopecia stories of women who went completely bald in a week, finding myself on balding support groups at 2am. I'm going to walk in to a doctor's today and see if I can get an appointment - added to my stress is the fact that I'm in a foreign country, don't really know how to navigate the healthcare system, have to deal with the language barrier (although hopefully it won't be hard to find an english speaking doctor where I am). My family has no history of balding but that doesn't assuage my fears. My mind is basically programmed to foresee the worst case scenario.
I've been feeling utterly utterly miserable - I cry every single day, call home a lot, feel homesick and alone and completely out of my depth. I feel at the end of my tether. I even tried to call samaritans only to discover that I can't call from abroad so I feel I have nobody to talk to.
Just wondering if anyone else on here has ever had a similar fear particularly regarding hair loss?