Minivil
06-10-16, 03:23
Hi everyone. I really have lost control on this HA stuff. Was taking the Zoloft, but it made my anxiety so much worse, I cannot tolerate it. But because of the insurance situation and our mounting overdue health bills (kids, not all mine), I can't even go back to the doc for anything. They did call me in some more Ativan which helps with sleep, but, really guys...
I literally am obsessed with checking for lumps in my breasts now. It's unconscious, but I catch myself every hour multiple times with my hand there checking. BC fears REALLY get to me. My aunt was dead at my age, and just knowing that cancer incidents start happening more frequently around my age...that 1-200 women my age-50 apparently get this? THOSE ARE TERRIBLE ODDS. I can't even "science"/logic myself out of this one, it's that bad. And my boobs are already fibrous...and even though my doc told me four months ago I'm fine, I'm convinced they missed something-----yet I'm terrified of mammograms.
Please don't move my post to the women's issues, I know this is an issue of anxiety...I don't even need reassurance about BC, I just need to know this is my anxiety being a b*tch right now. Had a really rough night with the family and, of course, I immediately flew to the bathroom to check again....coping, much? I just need people who understand right now.
I literally am obsessed with checking for lumps in my breasts now. It's unconscious, but I catch myself every hour multiple times with my hand there checking. BC fears REALLY get to me. My aunt was dead at my age, and just knowing that cancer incidents start happening more frequently around my age...that 1-200 women my age-50 apparently get this? THOSE ARE TERRIBLE ODDS. I can't even "science"/logic myself out of this one, it's that bad. And my boobs are already fibrous...and even though my doc told me four months ago I'm fine, I'm convinced they missed something-----yet I'm terrified of mammograms.
Please don't move my post to the women's issues, I know this is an issue of anxiety...I don't even need reassurance about BC, I just need to know this is my anxiety being a b*tch right now. Had a really rough night with the family and, of course, I immediately flew to the bathroom to check again....coping, much? I just need people who understand right now.