ninz94
13-10-16, 21:33
As I have said before, my 'phobia' of seizures has been ruining me for the past over 6 months, its caused me to have GAD symptoms, health anxiety and panic attacks. I also have alarming symptoms from anxiety, such as dizziness which I fear I have a brain tumor or any fatal illness to do with my brain. I have witnessed sizures a long time ago with my mother but hers weren't epileptic. That's why I have a fear of them (apologies to those who suffer from them) it sort of gave my mind a reason to fear and cause panic attacks.
I have never suffered from them nor do I at the moment I just fear them especially when I feel edgy or 'not right' I feel as if I may suffer from one but no blackouts, hallucinations or anything like that.
Anyway, my counsellor spoke about 'exposure therapy' to help me rid of my fear of them but I never took any notice and was against her request. Just yesterday I landed up watching a video of someone having one and somehow carried on watching seizure videos on youtube that left me terrified and panicked. I even cried and couldn't stop imagining what I saw in my mind it left me scared till today I can't stop thinking of what I saw and how dramatic that video was. It was on my mind the whole day today, I don't work I'm at home all day alone in my thoughts.
I called my counsellor this evening telling her about my 'exposure' on the web and how terrified that left me. She told me to continue watching them and get my mind used to seeing them so I don't fear them. I did some research on seizures around the time my mother had them, so I do know about them I also acknowledge they are harmful and there is no control over them but I can't help being so afraid of them. Should I do more exposing? I do feel as if seeing them again might help put my mind at ease but I am scared. :weep:
I have never suffered from them nor do I at the moment I just fear them especially when I feel edgy or 'not right' I feel as if I may suffer from one but no blackouts, hallucinations or anything like that.
Anyway, my counsellor spoke about 'exposure therapy' to help me rid of my fear of them but I never took any notice and was against her request. Just yesterday I landed up watching a video of someone having one and somehow carried on watching seizure videos on youtube that left me terrified and panicked. I even cried and couldn't stop imagining what I saw in my mind it left me scared till today I can't stop thinking of what I saw and how dramatic that video was. It was on my mind the whole day today, I don't work I'm at home all day alone in my thoughts.
I called my counsellor this evening telling her about my 'exposure' on the web and how terrified that left me. She told me to continue watching them and get my mind used to seeing them so I don't fear them. I did some research on seizures around the time my mother had them, so I do know about them I also acknowledge they are harmful and there is no control over them but I can't help being so afraid of them. Should I do more exposing? I do feel as if seeing them again might help put my mind at ease but I am scared. :weep: