Mummytofour
19-10-16, 17:59
Hi everyone,
I have just been put back on citalopram after 6 months of being off it completely. Was taking it for around 2 years including the tapering off. Cannot believe that I have to start up again and so wish I never came off in the first place even though I seemed to be fine again and did it all very slow with Drs advice etc. I have also been prescribed diazepam 2mg to help with the initial worsening anxiety. It's so far not been too bad but only on day 2. The diazepam so help but am only taking that if it gets unbearable as I have four kids to look after whilst going through this.
Last time my anxiety was focused on health issues but although obviously linked this time it is constant thoughts of death and dying. It's not that I think something is wrong this time and that death is around the corner but I cannot stop thinking what's the point in enjoying anything when I am going to die and what if something happens to my kids and they get ill or how would they and myself cope if I came down with something terminal. Even thinking I may live a long life which is good but will still die at the end of it and be apart from my children and other half. It's the most awful thing to think about every day and however much I try to reassure myself that the terminal illness is highly unlikely and death inevitable one day it makes me so sad and distressed. I cannot stop the spiralling thoughts.
The citalopram helped me last time round and sure it will again this time but I just need some reassurance that it should stop these constant thoughts as that's the worst part for me. I really am feeling defeated right now.
Any experience of these types of thoughts or citalopram helping with this would be really appreciated.
Thank you 😥
I have just been put back on citalopram after 6 months of being off it completely. Was taking it for around 2 years including the tapering off. Cannot believe that I have to start up again and so wish I never came off in the first place even though I seemed to be fine again and did it all very slow with Drs advice etc. I have also been prescribed diazepam 2mg to help with the initial worsening anxiety. It's so far not been too bad but only on day 2. The diazepam so help but am only taking that if it gets unbearable as I have four kids to look after whilst going through this.
Last time my anxiety was focused on health issues but although obviously linked this time it is constant thoughts of death and dying. It's not that I think something is wrong this time and that death is around the corner but I cannot stop thinking what's the point in enjoying anything when I am going to die and what if something happens to my kids and they get ill or how would they and myself cope if I came down with something terminal. Even thinking I may live a long life which is good but will still die at the end of it and be apart from my children and other half. It's the most awful thing to think about every day and however much I try to reassure myself that the terminal illness is highly unlikely and death inevitable one day it makes me so sad and distressed. I cannot stop the spiralling thoughts.
The citalopram helped me last time round and sure it will again this time but I just need some reassurance that it should stop these constant thoughts as that's the worst part for me. I really am feeling defeated right now.
Any experience of these types of thoughts or citalopram helping with this would be really appreciated.
Thank you 😥