xBettyBoopx
20-10-16, 22:38
Not beaing able to breathe properly and high heart rate or heart thudding or both, are the symptoms I have had for many years. For me it just seems to get worse, definately doesn't get easier.
I am tired of it. I am tired of thinking almost every minute I am awake about my breathing and listening into my heart. I wish I could switch it off!
Even when I sleep I seem to be tense and anxious as I wake up with clenched teeth and heart racing!
Lately I have been worse than ever. I feel like I can't put one foot in front of the other with gasping for air, but not always! Sometimes I don't feel as bad as I do now, sometimes I can do things without feeling overly breathless!
I gave up smoking 7 years ago after 37 years. At first it felt so good, I thought I could breathe better and that my heart wasn't going so fast. Then as time went on so the old symptoms came back and now it's worse than ever. I shake which I don't find scary but I only used to shake when I had a panic attack. I don't want to sit still because the shaking is worse, it's better to do something but my breathing and high heart rate won't allow me to do anything.......HELP!!
I'm not sure at this point what is going on in my body. I have felt so anxious for so many decades that I don't know what is anxiety and what is real :weep:
Has anyone felt stuck to the chair or stuck wherever you are in fear? Like your body is stiff with fear?
I live alone and have no one to talk to, I have lost friends and dumped so-called friends for the way I have been treated, even family members are not trustworthy. I don't want particularly to talk about myself (although being able to do that would hopefully lesson the tension), but just to talk to someone about anything and not feel afraid. I believe that if we didn't fear we would be able to put up with anything! We need the fear of course but not this excessive fear that stops us from living.
I almost want to believe that I have been feeling a lot worse lately because I have over active thyroid! That is treatable!! And yes I should go to the doctors. I really don't know why I don't make an appointment but I think maybe it's because I fear what they are going to say.
If only I could take my night time medication in the morning too, I think I would be a lot better. I take a very strong 2.5mg lorazepam which I have been taking for about 9 years, although I have been on some sort of tranquillizer for about 36/37 years!! They do help, I normally feel a bit better about an hour after taking it, but the hours leading up to taking it I am looking at the clock wishing the time away!! This is no life! It never was and never will be. Yes I do feel sorry for myself. 40+ years of this is too much, infact any amount of time stuck with fear is too much!
I maybe should have put this in a different segment :weep::weep:
I am tired of it. I am tired of thinking almost every minute I am awake about my breathing and listening into my heart. I wish I could switch it off!
Even when I sleep I seem to be tense and anxious as I wake up with clenched teeth and heart racing!
Lately I have been worse than ever. I feel like I can't put one foot in front of the other with gasping for air, but not always! Sometimes I don't feel as bad as I do now, sometimes I can do things without feeling overly breathless!
I gave up smoking 7 years ago after 37 years. At first it felt so good, I thought I could breathe better and that my heart wasn't going so fast. Then as time went on so the old symptoms came back and now it's worse than ever. I shake which I don't find scary but I only used to shake when I had a panic attack. I don't want to sit still because the shaking is worse, it's better to do something but my breathing and high heart rate won't allow me to do anything.......HELP!!
I'm not sure at this point what is going on in my body. I have felt so anxious for so many decades that I don't know what is anxiety and what is real :weep:
Has anyone felt stuck to the chair or stuck wherever you are in fear? Like your body is stiff with fear?
I live alone and have no one to talk to, I have lost friends and dumped so-called friends for the way I have been treated, even family members are not trustworthy. I don't want particularly to talk about myself (although being able to do that would hopefully lesson the tension), but just to talk to someone about anything and not feel afraid. I believe that if we didn't fear we would be able to put up with anything! We need the fear of course but not this excessive fear that stops us from living.
I almost want to believe that I have been feeling a lot worse lately because I have over active thyroid! That is treatable!! And yes I should go to the doctors. I really don't know why I don't make an appointment but I think maybe it's because I fear what they are going to say.
If only I could take my night time medication in the morning too, I think I would be a lot better. I take a very strong 2.5mg lorazepam which I have been taking for about 9 years, although I have been on some sort of tranquillizer for about 36/37 years!! They do help, I normally feel a bit better about an hour after taking it, but the hours leading up to taking it I am looking at the clock wishing the time away!! This is no life! It never was and never will be. Yes I do feel sorry for myself. 40+ years of this is too much, infact any amount of time stuck with fear is too much!
I maybe should have put this in a different segment :weep::weep: