aanns_GAD
23-10-16, 07:46
I've had this happen before but this time it just seemed like a lot. So I am on vacay and I had been fighting a bowel movement for awhile and when I finally got comfortable in our hotel I was able to make one happen. It was very large (TMI I'm sorry) and I could feel my body strain to get it out. Like I had to pause and prepare myself because it felt wincing. Once it was out I felt better obviously but then I went to wipe and there was quite a bit of bright blood on the paper. My heart sank into my stomach and I had a panic attack. I hurriedly pulled my pants up and started crying. I have IBS and have had bowel cancer fears for the past year. About 30 minutes later I went pee and saw that some was left on my underwear. I am freaking out. I have had some blood on tissue after a large bowel movement but this was alot more than I am used to. I keep imagining waking up in butt blood or having to go to the hospital and ruining our trip. I keep overly checking to see if there's blood there and I am so scared right now. I feel like I was so excited for this vacation and now I just want to go home and crawl in bed and cry.