katyfitz
30-10-16, 13:29
Hi guys. I've posted loads recently And I'm sure you all think 'her again' but literally have no one else to talk to.
I still can't get it out of my head about that black stool and runny diarrea. When I googled it and viewed images it looked the same so I now think that something by the dr has been missed and I am internally bleeding.
Is it right to be thinking that I've got cancer and when it's detected I can say to everyone 'told you so'. Is this normal thinking? I don't even know anymore.
I can't get excited about Christmas because I'm not sure I'll be at home as may be in hospital starting treatment. I literally feel like crying every hour of every day.
I'm so down and wish someone could open me up, tell me I'm fine and then close me again.
Sorry to rant on and thank so for listening x
I still can't get it out of my head about that black stool and runny diarrea. When I googled it and viewed images it looked the same so I now think that something by the dr has been missed and I am internally bleeding.
Is it right to be thinking that I've got cancer and when it's detected I can say to everyone 'told you so'. Is this normal thinking? I don't even know anymore.
I can't get excited about Christmas because I'm not sure I'll be at home as may be in hospital starting treatment. I literally feel like crying every hour of every day.
I'm so down and wish someone could open me up, tell me I'm fine and then close me again.
Sorry to rant on and thank so for listening x