Gryphoenix
03-04-07, 01:14
Hi everybody,
Wonder if anyone else besides me feels like this, lol. It's not exactly a 'fear of enclosed spaces' but more like a fear of 'not being able to get out of a situation.' I feel oddly panicky sometimes when even doing something mundane like washing dishes or brushing teeth because the thoughts of 'It would be really weird to suddenly stop dishes or brushing, no one ever does that,' and then I'd get the urge to run away and stop doing it, but I couldn't because it would again...be odd if I did do said action. Then that causes me to get all anxious and there we go.
Is that really strange sounding or what? I get like that on elevators or even staircases too cause you can't just 'stop and get out'. Stairs as in most people don't just stop in the middle of the stairs to take a break (my worry is of course that my heart will be beating fast when I go up stairs it'd get me in a tizzy cause it reminds me of PAs, yeah you could say I don't like my heart beating fast but I've been trying to exercise slowly to get out of that, it still bothers me though.)
I once had a mild PA a few years ago before I really started having them and before I knew what it was, in a car we were driving on the highway and I had been on a terryifying, literally claustraphobic ride the week before (Mission to Space at Epcot, anyone? They strap you in a little car, four people wide, no room to move). It was probably the first time I had felt actually physically claustraphobic and in the car it reminded me of the ride and I started freaking out because I knew that we couldn't just stop in the middle of the highway and I felt all closed in and stuff. The ride didn't actually bother me just after it, either, guess it took a week for it to sink in?
I don't really feel 'physically' claustrophobic that much anymore is what I'm trying to say, but when a situation is 'closed in', that's what bothers me.
Wonder if anyone else besides me feels like this, lol. It's not exactly a 'fear of enclosed spaces' but more like a fear of 'not being able to get out of a situation.' I feel oddly panicky sometimes when even doing something mundane like washing dishes or brushing teeth because the thoughts of 'It would be really weird to suddenly stop dishes or brushing, no one ever does that,' and then I'd get the urge to run away and stop doing it, but I couldn't because it would again...be odd if I did do said action. Then that causes me to get all anxious and there we go.
Is that really strange sounding or what? I get like that on elevators or even staircases too cause you can't just 'stop and get out'. Stairs as in most people don't just stop in the middle of the stairs to take a break (my worry is of course that my heart will be beating fast when I go up stairs it'd get me in a tizzy cause it reminds me of PAs, yeah you could say I don't like my heart beating fast but I've been trying to exercise slowly to get out of that, it still bothers me though.)
I once had a mild PA a few years ago before I really started having them and before I knew what it was, in a car we were driving on the highway and I had been on a terryifying, literally claustraphobic ride the week before (Mission to Space at Epcot, anyone? They strap you in a little car, four people wide, no room to move). It was probably the first time I had felt actually physically claustraphobic and in the car it reminded me of the ride and I started freaking out because I knew that we couldn't just stop in the middle of the highway and I felt all closed in and stuff. The ride didn't actually bother me just after it, either, guess it took a week for it to sink in?
I don't really feel 'physically' claustrophobic that much anymore is what I'm trying to say, but when a situation is 'closed in', that's what bothers me.