Mario1005
02-11-16, 22:50
My name is Mario, 31 married with two wonderful children!! I'm writing this because I'm tired of living in fear when it's time to travel. As a teenager I ruined few family trips, and now that I'm married I think I'ma ruin another one. I overthink things, like what if something happens to me in a different country I'm not comfortable at, who's gonna help me? What if I just wanna go home and I'm thounsands of miles away, with no telephone service to reach someone, I use think negative. I'm weak minded to a certain point, I actually made it to the Bahamas 3 years ago, I didn't get a panick attack but I just didn't enjoyed my honeymoon, my wife is real supportive but I fee like she just don't understands me. anyways my best friend is getting married in Costa Rica in a few days, I'm getting a lot of anxiety for the fact that the resort is 2 hours away from the airport and in the middle of the jungle, I've been k owing of the trip for a year now I just never thought it will get here real fast, I'm scared of ruining the trip for my friend and my wife. What makes me calm down is alcohol I'm constantly drinking when I'm out of my comfort zone.... I'm tired of living like this I'm just hoping my kids don't have to suffer like I do