Mojo61
06-11-16, 17:13
Hi guys. Haven't posted for a while as I've been away on holiday to Lanzarote (which I never thought I'd actually go through with, but I did)
Anyway, first day I felt a bit anxious and awoke with the horrible morning anxiety, but by the next day it had all disappeared and there then followed 2 weeks of absolute bliss, not a bit of anxiety - not one bit!!! And don't forget I've been ill for almost a year now so to have 2 weeks of freedom from this awful condition...well it felt like paradise!
Then I came back home to the UK and it has all started up again. I'm so upset that I've just been crying the whole time because I truly thought I'd got rid of it, that I'd somehow reset the clock by having this holiday. Sadly the ******* thing wasn't finished with me yet, lulled me into a false sense of security yet again before delivering the coup de grāce....
The only good thing to come out of this was that I now know for sure that it is all in my head, because if it wasn't then my anxiety would surely have carried on whilst I was on holiday? It is just deciphering how to combat it because I can't afford a permanent holiday - yes, I even thought about moving to Lanzarote if it was going to cure my anxiety!
Anyway, first day I felt a bit anxious and awoke with the horrible morning anxiety, but by the next day it had all disappeared and there then followed 2 weeks of absolute bliss, not a bit of anxiety - not one bit!!! And don't forget I've been ill for almost a year now so to have 2 weeks of freedom from this awful condition...well it felt like paradise!
Then I came back home to the UK and it has all started up again. I'm so upset that I've just been crying the whole time because I truly thought I'd got rid of it, that I'd somehow reset the clock by having this holiday. Sadly the ******* thing wasn't finished with me yet, lulled me into a false sense of security yet again before delivering the coup de grāce....
The only good thing to come out of this was that I now know for sure that it is all in my head, because if it wasn't then my anxiety would surely have carried on whilst I was on holiday? It is just deciphering how to combat it because I can't afford a permanent holiday - yes, I even thought about moving to Lanzarote if it was going to cure my anxiety!