Shelly15
07-11-16, 12:02
I've had a phobia of fainting since I gave birth 6years ago, I lost a lot of blood and nearly fainted but had an emergency blood transfusion just in time (I have a rare blood type so I thought I was going to die if they didn't have my blood type) this lead to feeling lightheaded all the time and I feared going out incase I fainted. I've had CBT didn't work then 3years ago my younger brother suddenly passed away as he had a heart problem so that made me even worse I got so anxious that there was something wrong with my heart which made my anxiety worse I was so depressed! I didn't leave my house for about 2years unless I had to.
Then about a year ago I started to feel like myself again I would go out without giving it a second thought managed to get a job, I still had the odd panic attack but I could control it, I felt like I wasn't being controlled by this stupid anxiety.
Then 5 months ago I got tonsillitis and was on antibiotics then it started again I was getting dizzy spells whilst working, I felt like I just wanted to run from the situation I was in, I had to quit my job I couldn't deal with it I would cry on the phone to my partner walking to work, I didn't want to go in and deal with it.
A couple of months ago on a hot day I was walking up the stairs and I fainted and since then I feel like I can't breath and I'm just about to take my last breath I feel like I'm back to where I was a couple of years ago I fear going out again I hate being around people. I hate the summer as I feel like I can't breath even more and I sweat so much where I'm panicking. Sometimes I'm getting out the bath and I faint, I had the sickness bug and couldn't get up and I fainted, I have to get my child from school and when I'm walking I feel drunk I'm so off balance my chest feels so tight I can't breath I'm so weak and lightheaded, I hate it! If I eat out after I've eaten the food I feel so faint but this rarely happens at home when I eat. I've been to the doctors who done blood tests for iron and thyroid they came back fine and are putting it down to stress and anxiety I feel like I just get palmed off with that answer every time, I don't feel like I'm being listened to at all! I fear there is something wrong with my heart I'm always on edge, I'm only 27 I just want to feel normal take my child on days out and go shopping but I physically can't!
Then about a year ago I started to feel like myself again I would go out without giving it a second thought managed to get a job, I still had the odd panic attack but I could control it, I felt like I wasn't being controlled by this stupid anxiety.
Then 5 months ago I got tonsillitis and was on antibiotics then it started again I was getting dizzy spells whilst working, I felt like I just wanted to run from the situation I was in, I had to quit my job I couldn't deal with it I would cry on the phone to my partner walking to work, I didn't want to go in and deal with it.
A couple of months ago on a hot day I was walking up the stairs and I fainted and since then I feel like I can't breath and I'm just about to take my last breath I feel like I'm back to where I was a couple of years ago I fear going out again I hate being around people. I hate the summer as I feel like I can't breath even more and I sweat so much where I'm panicking. Sometimes I'm getting out the bath and I faint, I had the sickness bug and couldn't get up and I fainted, I have to get my child from school and when I'm walking I feel drunk I'm so off balance my chest feels so tight I can't breath I'm so weak and lightheaded, I hate it! If I eat out after I've eaten the food I feel so faint but this rarely happens at home when I eat. I've been to the doctors who done blood tests for iron and thyroid they came back fine and are putting it down to stress and anxiety I feel like I just get palmed off with that answer every time, I don't feel like I'm being listened to at all! I fear there is something wrong with my heart I'm always on edge, I'm only 27 I just want to feel normal take my child on days out and go shopping but I physically can't!