Nina102
16-11-16, 19:43
This will be my first SSRI. I've always been against getting medicated because I usually get better overtime anyways.
However, when I suffered from major anxiety over two years ago I never completely got back to my old, happy self. I did get better and things did get back to normal, but I lost that happy, hopeful, eager young girl I once was. I didn't feel depressed, sad, or had anymore panic attacks but I stopped being truly happy as well.
Exercise and healthy eating did help A LOT but it still didn't bring back the old me.
The reason why I'm considering getting medicated this time is because last month my anxiety came back. This time I feel as if every time I fall asleep, I forget to breath. This can happen all throughout the night preventing me from getting any sleep. I know I'm not going to actually stop breathing, so I'm not afraid of that. I know I will eventually get some sleep, so I'm not afraid of that. I don't have to wake up early anyways, so I'm not afraid of that. What I'm afraid of is that I'll never be able to enjoy going to bed anymore. I'm not sure if anxiety caused this, or if it's the other way around. I did get a sleep study done but it will take a few weeks to get the results. I do know anxiety is making this worse though, because I take Lorazepam and I can usually get to sleep pretty quick and get a good night's rest. However if I don't take it, dread sets in fearing I won't be able to sleep without it. So it has become this horrible cycle.
I got a doctor's appointment on Friday, and I think I'm going to ask for 10mg of Celexa since I've heard from two friends now that it has done wonders for them.
I know medication isn't the solution and I need to tackle these problems face on, but the thing is there's really no problems to face. There's nothing stressful going on in my life right now, nothing sad, or nothing upsetting. Everything is perfect. I have a amazing supportive parents, a very loving boyfriend, and Christmas is just around the corner.
That's another thing, I probably can get through this on my own after awhile but I'm afraid it is going to ruin my Holidays like it did two years ago, and I'm also afraid that if I start taking Celexa that the side effects will also ruin my holidays. So I'm unsure of what to do.
I have no appetite, no motivation, can't sleep, no sex drive, no energy, and feel like a zombie, so really what's the worst this medication can do?
However, when I suffered from major anxiety over two years ago I never completely got back to my old, happy self. I did get better and things did get back to normal, but I lost that happy, hopeful, eager young girl I once was. I didn't feel depressed, sad, or had anymore panic attacks but I stopped being truly happy as well.
Exercise and healthy eating did help A LOT but it still didn't bring back the old me.
The reason why I'm considering getting medicated this time is because last month my anxiety came back. This time I feel as if every time I fall asleep, I forget to breath. This can happen all throughout the night preventing me from getting any sleep. I know I'm not going to actually stop breathing, so I'm not afraid of that. I know I will eventually get some sleep, so I'm not afraid of that. I don't have to wake up early anyways, so I'm not afraid of that. What I'm afraid of is that I'll never be able to enjoy going to bed anymore. I'm not sure if anxiety caused this, or if it's the other way around. I did get a sleep study done but it will take a few weeks to get the results. I do know anxiety is making this worse though, because I take Lorazepam and I can usually get to sleep pretty quick and get a good night's rest. However if I don't take it, dread sets in fearing I won't be able to sleep without it. So it has become this horrible cycle.
I got a doctor's appointment on Friday, and I think I'm going to ask for 10mg of Celexa since I've heard from two friends now that it has done wonders for them.
I know medication isn't the solution and I need to tackle these problems face on, but the thing is there's really no problems to face. There's nothing stressful going on in my life right now, nothing sad, or nothing upsetting. Everything is perfect. I have a amazing supportive parents, a very loving boyfriend, and Christmas is just around the corner.
That's another thing, I probably can get through this on my own after awhile but I'm afraid it is going to ruin my Holidays like it did two years ago, and I'm also afraid that if I start taking Celexa that the side effects will also ruin my holidays. So I'm unsure of what to do.
I have no appetite, no motivation, can't sleep, no sex drive, no energy, and feel like a zombie, so really what's the worst this medication can do?