SaoirseD
02-12-16, 03:03
Hello my name is Saoirse and I need help.
I have diagnosed PTSD, Depression and GAD.
I young but have been married for almost 2 years now. My husband's parents hate me and think I am a freak because of panic attacks I have had, and social anxiety I have.
Anyways, my husband just let me know that his little brother will be staying with us tomorrow and for the next 3 days. I am panicking. I'll tell you why. I have no idea why, but I hate all of his family members. I know this is a horrible thing to feel, but I feel so incredibly scared, angry and panicked when I am around any of them. I DO NOT want to feel like this, if I had a choice I would be sweet and caring and kind (I am to everyone else but them). Since he is coming to our tiny apartment I have nowhere to retreat to, I am panicking. I feel like the feelings I get around them are of overwhelming anger and fear. It's like a tornado, I have no control over it, even though I want to so badly. My husband hates me for this, and I hate myself for it to. I don't know why to do. His brother has never been mean to me, only his parents, so why am so INCREDIBLY afraid and irratated towards him?
I need help
I have diagnosed PTSD, Depression and GAD.
I young but have been married for almost 2 years now. My husband's parents hate me and think I am a freak because of panic attacks I have had, and social anxiety I have.
Anyways, my husband just let me know that his little brother will be staying with us tomorrow and for the next 3 days. I am panicking. I'll tell you why. I have no idea why, but I hate all of his family members. I know this is a horrible thing to feel, but I feel so incredibly scared, angry and panicked when I am around any of them. I DO NOT want to feel like this, if I had a choice I would be sweet and caring and kind (I am to everyone else but them). Since he is coming to our tiny apartment I have nowhere to retreat to, I am panicking. I feel like the feelings I get around them are of overwhelming anger and fear. It's like a tornado, I have no control over it, even though I want to so badly. My husband hates me for this, and I hate myself for it to. I don't know why to do. His brother has never been mean to me, only his parents, so why am so INCREDIBLY afraid and irratated towards him?
I need help