Annifrid
05-12-16, 09:59
Hi all,
I've just signed up to this forum for a little comfort and help. I'm from Holland and 51 years old.
(Anymore Dutch people here? :D )
Since 7 weeks I'm at Citalopram 20 mg.
I got it described(GP) because of a burnout and anxiety attacks.
All of a sudden, in the middle of the night, I got this loud ringing in my ears. Also very much ear pressure. I thought I was going crazy.
My work has been very stressful these last few months and my body just said STOP, 2 months ago.
So I am at home and trying to calm down. In the beginning I only took Oxazepam.
But that didn't do much to the anxiety. So after 2 weeks I went back to the doctors and he prescribed me the Cita.
I've been on them before, about 6 years ago, for 4 years, before tapering myself off. That was really tough.
I felt good and happy with my life. But, without me noticing it, I slowly got more nervous and anxious.
So here I am, back at square one.
And I feel very guilty and bad about having to be on them again. That I"m not strong enough to cope with life's difficulties.
I also suffer from very bad muscle aches in legs, arms and shoulders.
Th worst side affects seem to have subsided, but I'm still not there.
Anxiety has calmed down, but my ears can still feel pressured, especially when I have to do stressful things I guess.
Like tomorrow I have to go to work to drink coffee.
(In Holland we have a reintegration traject for people with burnout. You stay at home for some time, it may take months, and then try to go back on your own pace with the help of your company and a company doctor.)
The plan is to start work slowly, in januari, with 2-3 hours per week.
But I' feeling kinda stressed out, nervous of going back to work.
Can I cope again? I do not feel strong enough yet, but there is this pressure I feel, to get back asap. (Because I have also heard that my company will lay off 60 people in 2018/2019) So I'm worried they will fire me, because of my burnout.
They will think I am not a coping person.
Also my GP has gotten me to do psychotherapy.
Long story short;
I'm 7 weeks on 20mg; I gradually feel better, but still not strong enough.
Will I ever get better? I can't remember this from the first time.
Sorry for my long post.
I hope you are all doing well!
I've just signed up to this forum for a little comfort and help. I'm from Holland and 51 years old.
(Anymore Dutch people here? :D )
Since 7 weeks I'm at Citalopram 20 mg.
I got it described(GP) because of a burnout and anxiety attacks.
All of a sudden, in the middle of the night, I got this loud ringing in my ears. Also very much ear pressure. I thought I was going crazy.
My work has been very stressful these last few months and my body just said STOP, 2 months ago.
So I am at home and trying to calm down. In the beginning I only took Oxazepam.
But that didn't do much to the anxiety. So after 2 weeks I went back to the doctors and he prescribed me the Cita.
I've been on them before, about 6 years ago, for 4 years, before tapering myself off. That was really tough.
I felt good and happy with my life. But, without me noticing it, I slowly got more nervous and anxious.
So here I am, back at square one.
And I feel very guilty and bad about having to be on them again. That I"m not strong enough to cope with life's difficulties.
I also suffer from very bad muscle aches in legs, arms and shoulders.
Th worst side affects seem to have subsided, but I'm still not there.
Anxiety has calmed down, but my ears can still feel pressured, especially when I have to do stressful things I guess.
Like tomorrow I have to go to work to drink coffee.
(In Holland we have a reintegration traject for people with burnout. You stay at home for some time, it may take months, and then try to go back on your own pace with the help of your company and a company doctor.)
The plan is to start work slowly, in januari, with 2-3 hours per week.
But I' feeling kinda stressed out, nervous of going back to work.
Can I cope again? I do not feel strong enough yet, but there is this pressure I feel, to get back asap. (Because I have also heard that my company will lay off 60 people in 2018/2019) So I'm worried they will fire me, because of my burnout.
They will think I am not a coping person.
Also my GP has gotten me to do psychotherapy.
Long story short;
I'm 7 weeks on 20mg; I gradually feel better, but still not strong enough.
Will I ever get better? I can't remember this from the first time.
Sorry for my long post.
I hope you are all doing well!