Westielove
08-12-16, 18:33
So I'm back after a while of feeling ok. I am 9 weeks pregnant so I guess it's hormonal as well but my old fears have returned with a vengeance and I don't know what to do.
I had my first set of routine bloods taken on Monday which triggered my old fear (HIV) and despite getting a negative result last year after 4 years of obsessing over it, I now feel as bad as I did before I got the test done. I keep doubting the results and thinking that the lab may have somehow made a mistake, and I am destined for a positive result in my prental bloods.
I also have started fearing Hep C as I have never been tested for this after a risky (oral) encounter 6 years ago.
I have to call my OB tomorrow to check if my results are back and I am shaking at the thought of it. I'm so scared she is going to tell me I have one or the other. I don't think I will be able to face calling her. .
Why can't I just trust that mistakes are not made with these types of tests? It's scary how real the thoughts feel and I can't visualise anything but the worse case scenario.
Please help! Has anyone else been in a similar position?
I had my first set of routine bloods taken on Monday which triggered my old fear (HIV) and despite getting a negative result last year after 4 years of obsessing over it, I now feel as bad as I did before I got the test done. I keep doubting the results and thinking that the lab may have somehow made a mistake, and I am destined for a positive result in my prental bloods.
I also have started fearing Hep C as I have never been tested for this after a risky (oral) encounter 6 years ago.
I have to call my OB tomorrow to check if my results are back and I am shaking at the thought of it. I'm so scared she is going to tell me I have one or the other. I don't think I will be able to face calling her. .
Why can't I just trust that mistakes are not made with these types of tests? It's scary how real the thoughts feel and I can't visualise anything but the worse case scenario.
Please help! Has anyone else been in a similar position?