duke27
12-12-16, 10:16
Feel like this is the end for me, there is no way out.
I'm 22 and have a 9 month old baby. I'm so confused about what's going on with me and so frightened. Doctors don't listen, they refuse to do any tests other than a blood test which came back normal. Who do I turn to? I feel like I'm wasting away. I can't enjoy anything anymore, I feel numb, like I'm a robot doing the same thing day in and day out. The most heartbreaking aspect is that I feel I am losing out on enjoying the first years of my baby. I feel like a bad mother even though everything I do is for him, I still breastfeed hI'm too. I just feel so alone and emotionless. Yet I manage to feel fear every minute of every day. Why? 😟
I have given up with doctors now. I know my body very well and know that I don't feel right at all. I spend every day sag at home because I fear going out. I spend most of my rime on the sofa becayse I fear standing as I feel so dizzy weak and off balance like I could collapse at any moment. I suffered with health anxiety when I was about 15 ans cbt and various other things such as driving lessons and meeting my partner helped me get over it. This time it's different it feels so muxh worse, which makes me think that these symptoms aren't due to anxiety. Any public place or if someone tries to talk to me I feel severe exhaustion like I can hardly open my eyes, my head bobs constantly and I worry people can see, I struggle to catch my breath when I talk. I get dizzy and feel strange. I feel I can never enjoy things anymore. I'm so worried about Christmas because it means social contact. I can't even speak to people my mind goes blank and I can't speak. Surely that's not anxoety? I often feel like I'm dropping, I can just be watching TV and I'll feel like I'm droppung and then have a surge of adrenaline because I get scared. It's really horrible looking at my son everyday and thinking... I'm about to die. The symptoms trigger my anoxety not the other way round if that makes sense?
I'm so scared of leaving my son without a mother or having a terrible progressive disease and I'll be able to see my son but not play with him etc. I'be had 2 councelling sessions and been prescribed setraline which I'm scared to take. Someone help me? 😟
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I often feel sick and have tummy pains. I feel like I can't eat quite a lot like it gets stuck in my throat. I've lost over 2 stone in 9 months since having my baby but this last 2 months has been about a stone even though I have been eating normally. I also get massive dizzy spells if I'm hungry. What is going on with me there is a lump on my mastoid bone behind my ear and I'm convinced it's cancer!
I'm 22 and have a 9 month old baby. I'm so confused about what's going on with me and so frightened. Doctors don't listen, they refuse to do any tests other than a blood test which came back normal. Who do I turn to? I feel like I'm wasting away. I can't enjoy anything anymore, I feel numb, like I'm a robot doing the same thing day in and day out. The most heartbreaking aspect is that I feel I am losing out on enjoying the first years of my baby. I feel like a bad mother even though everything I do is for him, I still breastfeed hI'm too. I just feel so alone and emotionless. Yet I manage to feel fear every minute of every day. Why? 😟
I have given up with doctors now. I know my body very well and know that I don't feel right at all. I spend every day sag at home because I fear going out. I spend most of my rime on the sofa becayse I fear standing as I feel so dizzy weak and off balance like I could collapse at any moment. I suffered with health anxiety when I was about 15 ans cbt and various other things such as driving lessons and meeting my partner helped me get over it. This time it's different it feels so muxh worse, which makes me think that these symptoms aren't due to anxiety. Any public place or if someone tries to talk to me I feel severe exhaustion like I can hardly open my eyes, my head bobs constantly and I worry people can see, I struggle to catch my breath when I talk. I get dizzy and feel strange. I feel I can never enjoy things anymore. I'm so worried about Christmas because it means social contact. I can't even speak to people my mind goes blank and I can't speak. Surely that's not anxoety? I often feel like I'm dropping, I can just be watching TV and I'll feel like I'm droppung and then have a surge of adrenaline because I get scared. It's really horrible looking at my son everyday and thinking... I'm about to die. The symptoms trigger my anoxety not the other way round if that makes sense?
I'm so scared of leaving my son without a mother or having a terrible progressive disease and I'll be able to see my son but not play with him etc. I'be had 2 councelling sessions and been prescribed setraline which I'm scared to take. Someone help me? 😟
---------- Post added at 10:16 ---------- Previous post was at 10:14 ----------
I often feel sick and have tummy pains. I feel like I can't eat quite a lot like it gets stuck in my throat. I've lost over 2 stone in 9 months since having my baby but this last 2 months has been about a stone even though I have been eating normally. I also get massive dizzy spells if I'm hungry. What is going on with me there is a lump on my mastoid bone behind my ear and I'm convinced it's cancer!