LF87
13-12-16, 11:25
I have an appointment tomorrow at the doctors. I've tried to stay rational and read everyone's messages over and over but I still find myself prodding and poking and getting myself upset at my groin 'lymph node swelling'.
I'm really scared now that she'll be concerned and send me for a scan / biopsy. I genuinely don't feel I can cope with that, I just spent weeks worrying after having an abnormal smear test (mild changes) but they sent me for a colposcopy as I had HPV. The area was biopsied and confirmed mild changes and to go back in a year. But i have spent the past month demented, I've gone from training everyday and playing netball to nothing. I've gained a stone, drinking a lot and generally making myself ill. I somehow managed to complete my first placement at university throughout this but I feel really at the end of my tether with all the worrying. This groin spot/lump thing couldn't have appeared at a worse time. I know it shows more signs of being a spot than a lymph node but I don't understand why it's still there after being squeezed.
What's the likelihood I'll get sent for tests? It's not a big swelling but I'm so scared she's worried about it.
I can't pull myself through at the minute. I almost got back into my old mouth cancer obsession before I noticed the groin thing, that sort of took over. This is a bad HA spiral, but I'm still freaked out by the groin.
Thanks for reading and any advice is greatly appreciated
I'm really scared now that she'll be concerned and send me for a scan / biopsy. I genuinely don't feel I can cope with that, I just spent weeks worrying after having an abnormal smear test (mild changes) but they sent me for a colposcopy as I had HPV. The area was biopsied and confirmed mild changes and to go back in a year. But i have spent the past month demented, I've gone from training everyday and playing netball to nothing. I've gained a stone, drinking a lot and generally making myself ill. I somehow managed to complete my first placement at university throughout this but I feel really at the end of my tether with all the worrying. This groin spot/lump thing couldn't have appeared at a worse time. I know it shows more signs of being a spot than a lymph node but I don't understand why it's still there after being squeezed.
What's the likelihood I'll get sent for tests? It's not a big swelling but I'm so scared she's worried about it.
I can't pull myself through at the minute. I almost got back into my old mouth cancer obsession before I noticed the groin thing, that sort of took over. This is a bad HA spiral, but I'm still freaked out by the groin.
Thanks for reading and any advice is greatly appreciated