Ditapage
17-12-16, 01:22
Hello fellow warriors,
I'm SO tired. Physically as well as mentally. A tiredness I can't describe and I get angry at the thought of having to explain to people I am TOO tired to socialise. Even talking on the phone takes it out of me. My body just feels heavy and I feel like I can't breathe even though I can. There's an elephant on my chest. My eyes are tired and sting.
Who else experiences this? Is it normal to be so tired you feel like you can't move? I have no motivation to do anything. All I have is fear of doing nothing which makes me start hyperventilating.
A blood test came back normal besides B12 on the lower side but the doctor wasn't concerned about it. I don't believe just depression can cause this lethargy. I don't want to do anything. Not even watch a movie. Part of it is I don't want to see people living lives even if it's just on TV. Then I start thinking of the actors and how lucky they are to be rich and surrounded by interesting famous people blah blah blah - I know secretly lots of them aren't happy either and I have no idea. But when you're 29, unemployed, alone, and anxious and depressed there's a tendency to believe everyone has it better than me.
The tiredness makes me anxious. I hate feeling like I'm not in control. I can't even sleep in the day time because I'm too wired. I lay down and close my eyes and the thoughts don't stop, one of those thoughts being "you're not having a life." But the fatigue is so bad I feel like I might pass out and it makes me afraid to go out alone.
Does anyone feel the same way? I can't even accept this is depression. Maybe someone else experiencing this can reassure me it really can be this bad because the constant thoughts of dying of an obscure illness aren't helping either. I can't keep running off to doctors. Tiredness scares me so much because it doesn't feel right. I know what it is to have anxiety symptoms off and on but this near constant tiredness and eyes always wanting to close is awful. Maybe I'm underestimating depression. Thank you for reading.
I'm SO tired. Physically as well as mentally. A tiredness I can't describe and I get angry at the thought of having to explain to people I am TOO tired to socialise. Even talking on the phone takes it out of me. My body just feels heavy and I feel like I can't breathe even though I can. There's an elephant on my chest. My eyes are tired and sting.
Who else experiences this? Is it normal to be so tired you feel like you can't move? I have no motivation to do anything. All I have is fear of doing nothing which makes me start hyperventilating.
A blood test came back normal besides B12 on the lower side but the doctor wasn't concerned about it. I don't believe just depression can cause this lethargy. I don't want to do anything. Not even watch a movie. Part of it is I don't want to see people living lives even if it's just on TV. Then I start thinking of the actors and how lucky they are to be rich and surrounded by interesting famous people blah blah blah - I know secretly lots of them aren't happy either and I have no idea. But when you're 29, unemployed, alone, and anxious and depressed there's a tendency to believe everyone has it better than me.
The tiredness makes me anxious. I hate feeling like I'm not in control. I can't even sleep in the day time because I'm too wired. I lay down and close my eyes and the thoughts don't stop, one of those thoughts being "you're not having a life." But the fatigue is so bad I feel like I might pass out and it makes me afraid to go out alone.
Does anyone feel the same way? I can't even accept this is depression. Maybe someone else experiencing this can reassure me it really can be this bad because the constant thoughts of dying of an obscure illness aren't helping either. I can't keep running off to doctors. Tiredness scares me so much because it doesn't feel right. I know what it is to have anxiety symptoms off and on but this near constant tiredness and eyes always wanting to close is awful. Maybe I'm underestimating depression. Thank you for reading.