shazbog
19-12-16, 14:56
Well here I go again - I seem to always come back to constant worrying and once I start I spiral out of control with it .....
Well ultimately I think it is me obsessing about every single thing I possibly can - I have a larger than normal lymph node in my neck/ha area that has been the same for possibly 5 years and has remained bigger than average since I had an abcess in wisdom tooth years ago which they refused to remove as to close to facial nerves - well I am now totally in overdrive over this along with a constant mucus throats and making me feel a lump there - no issues eating etc but I cannot stop thinking about it and am convincing myself I ha w some kind of cancer to the point I feel I cannot be bothered to do anything whatsoever and feeling very overwhelmed and tearful - if I am distracted I don't notice any of these things so much but cannot focus on anything else other than what I fear ...... I have spent far to many years worrying like this and just want it to go away and leave me alone
Well ultimately I think it is me obsessing about every single thing I possibly can - I have a larger than normal lymph node in my neck/ha area that has been the same for possibly 5 years and has remained bigger than average since I had an abcess in wisdom tooth years ago which they refused to remove as to close to facial nerves - well I am now totally in overdrive over this along with a constant mucus throats and making me feel a lump there - no issues eating etc but I cannot stop thinking about it and am convincing myself I ha w some kind of cancer to the point I feel I cannot be bothered to do anything whatsoever and feeling very overwhelmed and tearful - if I am distracted I don't notice any of these things so much but cannot focus on anything else other than what I fear ...... I have spent far to many years worrying like this and just want it to go away and leave me alone