Existing not living help please

[Beth2016]

I don't feel like I can do this forever I feel like I am constantly battling with my head to try keep myself calm its a horrible battle that no one seems to understand I have 3 young children and used to be so much fun going places when my oldest was young before I let my head control everything... I have anxiety, panic, depression, weird eating habits (not eating then binging)and get obsessed with order and that. I just want to live a life and do stuff my kids deserve someone more than me and what I can give them I don't know how long I can live like this I've tried everything medication even being on a lot of dizepam for nearly 2 years but they weaned me off it and therapy nothing is helping and I hate this has anyone found anything that helps? Please

[emmegee]

Let me tell you I know how you feel. I don't feel like doing much at all and I used to enjoy life. I also feel guilty that my children are suffering.

Are you regularly seeing a therapist, psychologist, or psychiatrist? It might be a good idea. Even speaking with your GP about how your feeling...they might want to refer you to a mental health specialist.

How about antidepressants? Have you ever tried them? They help some people tremendously. I would mention it to your GP.

In the meantime; try to stay as active as you can, keep busy, try yoga, excercise. If you have people who care about you let them know you are struggling. I have found some relaxation apps for my phone that work well.

[times71]

Beth. You mentioned that you used to have fun when you took your children places. You also said you want your kids to deserve someone more than you. I think the first part answers the second part. I would use the first part as your recovery, and the second part as your motivation. Might sound a bit hard but you need to get your hands dirty and confront your fears, and im sure your children will love you for it.

best wishes

[Beth2016]

Sorry for late reply been having a big struggle with the holidays and feeling like I am ruining them for the kids but I managed to give them a good Christmas Day and now I feel so depressive that the quick high I had couldn't last and now my anxiety is back so bad and I really go down and down its making me not want to be here at all I want a normal head so it's not such a big deal about stuff and I am rambling on sorry I will speak to my doctor on Wednesday although they have started me on steraline some like rescue dizepam which I feel like I need more of and I will see a therapist 10th Jan for my first appointment xx

[slawek]

In life there is always something to be happy about and something what needs improving. It's good to focus on the positives. Try to find them. I'm not perfect mother and my son has lots of issues because of the childhood I gave him BUT they are not hungry, they have nice warm home and mum who has always time for them and who loves them and tell this to them every day.:)
*** Just do your best and God will do the rest ***