Mochi
21-12-16, 17:09
I am spiraling downward right now and can't seem to catch a break from the anxiety. I have been having stomach issues for some time now and have been working with a gastroenterologist to check up on my pancreas due to my cancer fears. Then, this past Friday I found a lump next to my right breast (been writing about that in female issues section) and went off the deep end again; immediate freak out! I have an ultrasound appointment this afternoon to check that out. Well, now I have a new symptom! Last night as I was putting my daughter to bed, my left shoulder started hurting. It feels like a pinched nerve when I breath in; even shallow breaths. I was able to dismiss the fear on this one last night, telling myself I must have just tweaked something. BUT, I woke up this morning with the pain still there and am now worrying about this too!
The thing about this that has me all twisted up is that usually when I go from one terrible disease to another, the focus shifts and I no longer feel the last pain as I have moved on.... this is not happening this time. The lump is still there, my stomach pain has not changed and now my shoulder hurts! Aaaahhh!!
I am feeling a little out of control.
Daughter just woke up and we are about to play monopoly ... hopefully she can distract me.
M
The thing about this that has me all twisted up is that usually when I go from one terrible disease to another, the focus shifts and I no longer feel the last pain as I have moved on.... this is not happening this time. The lump is still there, my stomach pain has not changed and now my shoulder hurts! Aaaahhh!!
I am feeling a little out of control.
Daughter just woke up and we are about to play monopoly ... hopefully she can distract me.
M