Lilchick
30-12-16, 23:54
My issue is robably down to my anxiety. Whenever I'm anxious about something I feel physically sick and in most cases will puke. Whenever I get feelings for someone I freak out. I've been friends with this guy for a couple of years and we have become extremely close in that time. Recently we both admitted to having feelings for one another, however I simply can't face them. The thought of going on a date or getting close to him makes me feel physically sick and panics me. But then there are others time when that's all I want, just to chill with him and hug him and go places and share things with him. But when it actually comes down to it I just freak out at the thought of it. I don't know why if we didn't have feelings then I could most likely meet up with him outside class time and feel relaxed, we're both 18 by the way, last year of high school.
Btw - I am going to a gathering in a few days and he will be there and the very prospect of that is putting me off going because I just feel already sick and nervous and like I will freak out. At the last gathering it was such a relief to find out that he wasn't going, - that shouldn't be the case for someone that you're practically in love with. I have had strong feelings for him for a long time and he head listened to all my problems and cared and I just don't know what's making me like this. It's honestly crippling. Should I go to this gathering? I'm scared I'll freak out idkkk! Helppp
Btw - I am going to a gathering in a few days and he will be there and the very prospect of that is putting me off going because I just feel already sick and nervous and like I will freak out. At the last gathering it was such a relief to find out that he wasn't going, - that shouldn't be the case for someone that you're practically in love with. I have had strong feelings for him for a long time and he head listened to all my problems and cared and I just don't know what's making me like this. It's honestly crippling. Should I go to this gathering? I'm scared I'll freak out idkkk! Helppp