LF87
31-12-16, 00:14
Hi,
I have a few things going on at the moment which are tormenting me.
I seem to be able to control adrenaline in my body. I can do this 'thing' where I can feel adrenaline or something run through me. My pupils dilate and my heart rate goes up a little. Went to docs over it years ago she said it's not harmful to me.
But my issue is this, I have noticed more of those red pin prick spots on my skin and I've convinced myself I've caused them by the 'adrenaline surge'. I am also very twitchy as well anf again think I've done this. I'm terrified I'm damaging by body by this thing I can do. I know just don't do it is the obvious answer but it's like a sensation, and I have to sort of resist the urge. But resisting the urge is becoming the battle. My doctor did say it wasn't harmful. But is it possible I've caused an increase in the cherry spots and the twitching?
I'm desperately scared, demented, can't sleep. Drank far too much in a bid to feel better and obviously today has increased my anxiety beyond my worst it's been for a long time.
Any soothing words would be so helpful right now, I think my boyfriend is ready to bash his head off a wall, I've talked non stop about it :(
I have a few things going on at the moment which are tormenting me.
I seem to be able to control adrenaline in my body. I can do this 'thing' where I can feel adrenaline or something run through me. My pupils dilate and my heart rate goes up a little. Went to docs over it years ago she said it's not harmful to me.
But my issue is this, I have noticed more of those red pin prick spots on my skin and I've convinced myself I've caused them by the 'adrenaline surge'. I am also very twitchy as well anf again think I've done this. I'm terrified I'm damaging by body by this thing I can do. I know just don't do it is the obvious answer but it's like a sensation, and I have to sort of resist the urge. But resisting the urge is becoming the battle. My doctor did say it wasn't harmful. But is it possible I've caused an increase in the cherry spots and the twitching?
I'm desperately scared, demented, can't sleep. Drank far too much in a bid to feel better and obviously today has increased my anxiety beyond my worst it's been for a long time.
Any soothing words would be so helpful right now, I think my boyfriend is ready to bash his head off a wall, I've talked non stop about it :(