KrazyK
03-01-17, 12:50
Hi,
So I have just come across this forum after trying to research about how my GAD with ocd tendiencies will effect this baby.
Bit of background. I have had GAD with ocd since I was 11 (now 28) but only got diagnosed Dec 2015. I am married and we have a lovely boy who is 3. He gets ill a lot with tonsilitus which really plays up my anxiety. He has now been refered for a tonsilectomy but of course I am petrified of him having an operation.
After 9months of trying for baby no2 we had an early mc. I was 5w. Then after a total of 14months we fell again. I am now 24weeks. Its a girl and due to me having cronic kidney diease can not have any more children we were over the moon.
But every single day I just cant get excited, I am fearful and scared of having this baby. Everyday I think somethjng will happen to her. I dont even feel pregnant. I just feel fat! I am so busy running around after ds (and spend most of the day shouting at him) that i feel like i dont have the time to be pregnant.
I came off my meds when we found out (gradually of course) as of course I have anxieties of taking it and bejng pregnant.
My husband is great and very understanding without my meds and says he thinks im coping very well considering. My poor ds on the other hand.... i spend all day telling him off, dont do this or that, listen to me, stop acting like a baby, etc.. that i dread waking every single day! Especially as he has me up every night with night terrors!
Christmas hasnt helped 3weeks of the two of us home together. Ds behaviour is awful atm and he is going through regression due to us having a baby ontop of usual 3yo finding himself so he is VERY hard work.
Things just seem to be getting worse and worse for me I think I am an awful terrible mother and can't cope with one child so how on earth am i going to have a child and baby???
I am falling apart day by day I just want to cry n scream and leave and never return cause i dont feel like i deserve the family i have. :'(
So I have just come across this forum after trying to research about how my GAD with ocd tendiencies will effect this baby.
Bit of background. I have had GAD with ocd since I was 11 (now 28) but only got diagnosed Dec 2015. I am married and we have a lovely boy who is 3. He gets ill a lot with tonsilitus which really plays up my anxiety. He has now been refered for a tonsilectomy but of course I am petrified of him having an operation.
After 9months of trying for baby no2 we had an early mc. I was 5w. Then after a total of 14months we fell again. I am now 24weeks. Its a girl and due to me having cronic kidney diease can not have any more children we were over the moon.
But every single day I just cant get excited, I am fearful and scared of having this baby. Everyday I think somethjng will happen to her. I dont even feel pregnant. I just feel fat! I am so busy running around after ds (and spend most of the day shouting at him) that i feel like i dont have the time to be pregnant.
I came off my meds when we found out (gradually of course) as of course I have anxieties of taking it and bejng pregnant.
My husband is great and very understanding without my meds and says he thinks im coping very well considering. My poor ds on the other hand.... i spend all day telling him off, dont do this or that, listen to me, stop acting like a baby, etc.. that i dread waking every single day! Especially as he has me up every night with night terrors!
Christmas hasnt helped 3weeks of the two of us home together. Ds behaviour is awful atm and he is going through regression due to us having a baby ontop of usual 3yo finding himself so he is VERY hard work.
Things just seem to be getting worse and worse for me I think I am an awful terrible mother and can't cope with one child so how on earth am i going to have a child and baby???
I am falling apart day by day I just want to cry n scream and leave and never return cause i dont feel like i deserve the family i have. :'(