UnhappyWorrier
05-01-17, 11:42
I went to a party on NYE. Alcohol was consumed, of course, and I got pretty drunk. However, I remained in control of my actions, didn't drink to the point of getting sick and pretty sure I didn't black out, because I remember the party pretty well, however I do not remember the 10 minute walk home.
I woke up with a hangover, but otherwise feeling quite alright, no injuries, no dirty clothes, even had my PJs on. Sadly, recently my OCD and anxiety has kicked in and I keep rethinking what if I did something bad on my way home, like hurt or even kill (!!!) someone. It got to the point when I was looking at crime news, but no incident happened where I was walking and the ones that did happen on that night were already solved and they found the people responsible.
My OCD presents itself not only in terms of checking/rechecking things and repeating patterns, but also in these kinds of imagined scenarios: I have created scenarios or false memories in my head of doing something bad/illegal. I know this scenario is illogical, I've never been in a violent confrontation, I got home fine and with no injuries, I'm not in any trouble now and any incidents would be reported and I'd be detained, not to mention as a drunken female walking down an empty street at early morning hours I'm the one who's at risk, not posing risk to others. But while rethinking all these facts and googling, I have made myself extremely anxious.
Can someone offer a side opinion whether this is just a silly intrusive thought? I feel like I have a logical voice in my head, but I can't bring it out.
I woke up with a hangover, but otherwise feeling quite alright, no injuries, no dirty clothes, even had my PJs on. Sadly, recently my OCD and anxiety has kicked in and I keep rethinking what if I did something bad on my way home, like hurt or even kill (!!!) someone. It got to the point when I was looking at crime news, but no incident happened where I was walking and the ones that did happen on that night were already solved and they found the people responsible.
My OCD presents itself not only in terms of checking/rechecking things and repeating patterns, but also in these kinds of imagined scenarios: I have created scenarios or false memories in my head of doing something bad/illegal. I know this scenario is illogical, I've never been in a violent confrontation, I got home fine and with no injuries, I'm not in any trouble now and any incidents would be reported and I'd be detained, not to mention as a drunken female walking down an empty street at early morning hours I'm the one who's at risk, not posing risk to others. But while rethinking all these facts and googling, I have made myself extremely anxious.
Can someone offer a side opinion whether this is just a silly intrusive thought? I feel like I have a logical voice in my head, but I can't bring it out.