Emmajo
10-01-17, 18:45
So, I recently left a job of 7 years, to start a new role/opportunity with a charity and I just couldn't do it which led to my unemployment. My old job was OK until my role changed and there was too much travel involved for me so I decided to move on and seek something new.
First day in to this new role (which sounded like a great place to work), they wanted me to do things like drive on a motorway up north and attend the Christmas party...I was overwhelmed. I did discuss my anxiety with them beforehand and assured me there would be no travel etc. But when I started I was given an ultimate by HR, turn up within 3 hours or resign (I'd had a panic attack on my second morning because I was overwhelmed.) I have a fear of eating in restaurants and I cannot do motorway driving, I offered to go on the train but they didn't seem happy about that. They suggested maybe I needed time off work.
So anyway, I've been unemployed for 3 weeks, NHS called me and offered me a job out of the blue, I went for an informal chat with them and got it. They remembered me from a previous interview. I've completed the first two days of induction, been secretly, heavily sick and ill on the first and feeling very ill today. Tomorrow I start work. Earlier than I thought as the start date was originally Feb. Any advice on how to cope?
Basically I obsess over things before I go, so when I go I get the shakes, feel sick, keep needing the toilet, sometimes I am sick... I really really want the job and I know being anxious is normal but I don't want to physically sit there and shake and keep rushing to the toilet. :( I know I will be fine if I can get over this hurdle, anxiety doesn't usually effect me at work it's just the initial change. As long as I don't have to go out to any restaurants soon I'm sure I'll settle and learn my role..But I am terrified of tomorrow and I can't stop thinking about things. :/
First day in to this new role (which sounded like a great place to work), they wanted me to do things like drive on a motorway up north and attend the Christmas party...I was overwhelmed. I did discuss my anxiety with them beforehand and assured me there would be no travel etc. But when I started I was given an ultimate by HR, turn up within 3 hours or resign (I'd had a panic attack on my second morning because I was overwhelmed.) I have a fear of eating in restaurants and I cannot do motorway driving, I offered to go on the train but they didn't seem happy about that. They suggested maybe I needed time off work.
So anyway, I've been unemployed for 3 weeks, NHS called me and offered me a job out of the blue, I went for an informal chat with them and got it. They remembered me from a previous interview. I've completed the first two days of induction, been secretly, heavily sick and ill on the first and feeling very ill today. Tomorrow I start work. Earlier than I thought as the start date was originally Feb. Any advice on how to cope?
Basically I obsess over things before I go, so when I go I get the shakes, feel sick, keep needing the toilet, sometimes I am sick... I really really want the job and I know being anxious is normal but I don't want to physically sit there and shake and keep rushing to the toilet. :( I know I will be fine if I can get over this hurdle, anxiety doesn't usually effect me at work it's just the initial change. As long as I don't have to go out to any restaurants soon I'm sure I'll settle and learn my role..But I am terrified of tomorrow and I can't stop thinking about things. :/