.Poppy.
13-01-17, 21:40
So.
Ever since I began taking medication for my anxiety and depression I have had my ups and downs. I've done some therapy with two different therapists, but am not doing so presently. The past few months have been pretty good - even though they have been stressful I have been able to keep my head up and push on for the most part. I credited the meds with this - they literally kept me upright.
Now I'm in the midst of beginning a new job, figuring out that new job, hardcore budgeting until I get paid, and hunting for apartments (I won't move until the summer). I know I'm stressed. I know this.
But I am getting majorly run down and I feel like I just cannot cope. Seriously. My breaking point has actually been physical in nature - I've been a bit bloated due to stress (sorry if that's TMI) so I'm convincing myself that I am going to gain a massive amount of weight and be fat. The past couple of days I've broken out slightly too, a couple on my forehead, two around my mouth that are small but noticeable, and a few that I can't see but can just feel the little bumps there, also around my mouth (check over old posts if you want to read all about my skin and my self esteem :(). I also will be undergoing scar treatments in a couple of months but am afraid they won't do anything or will make the problem worse or I'll be so broken out by that time they won't even try.
I keep telling myself that I've had these "scares" before, that I've had mini little breakouts and they've amounted to nothing but I can't believe myself and I hate myself for that.
I feel like the meds are, again, literally keeping me upright and getting me into work instead of keeping me in bed all the time, but geez. Do I need to go back to therapy or do something differently? I know that there will be ups and downs, there always have been, but maybe I don't know how to cope very well with the downs? I'm just so, so tired and I know I posted a thread in another section not too long before this one which I hate.
Ever since I began taking medication for my anxiety and depression I have had my ups and downs. I've done some therapy with two different therapists, but am not doing so presently. The past few months have been pretty good - even though they have been stressful I have been able to keep my head up and push on for the most part. I credited the meds with this - they literally kept me upright.
Now I'm in the midst of beginning a new job, figuring out that new job, hardcore budgeting until I get paid, and hunting for apartments (I won't move until the summer). I know I'm stressed. I know this.
But I am getting majorly run down and I feel like I just cannot cope. Seriously. My breaking point has actually been physical in nature - I've been a bit bloated due to stress (sorry if that's TMI) so I'm convincing myself that I am going to gain a massive amount of weight and be fat. The past couple of days I've broken out slightly too, a couple on my forehead, two around my mouth that are small but noticeable, and a few that I can't see but can just feel the little bumps there, also around my mouth (check over old posts if you want to read all about my skin and my self esteem :(). I also will be undergoing scar treatments in a couple of months but am afraid they won't do anything or will make the problem worse or I'll be so broken out by that time they won't even try.
I keep telling myself that I've had these "scares" before, that I've had mini little breakouts and they've amounted to nothing but I can't believe myself and I hate myself for that.
I feel like the meds are, again, literally keeping me upright and getting me into work instead of keeping me in bed all the time, but geez. Do I need to go back to therapy or do something differently? I know that there will be ups and downs, there always have been, but maybe I don't know how to cope very well with the downs? I'm just so, so tired and I know I posted a thread in another section not too long before this one which I hate.