anyone out there like me?

[Sphincterclench]

Im curious, if there are others out there like me.

Im a workaholic that hates his job yet has no idea what to do when Im off.

I literally pace or sit and stare blankly at the TV. Eventually the boredom will allow my mind to wander and that is NEVER a good thing and I usually end up priming my mind and then chasing evidence to prove that its true.

[nivekc251]

Yea I get like that also. Lazy days for me or more like crazy find something horrible wrong with you days. I try to clean or do yard work, or drink. Gaming also helps me .

[Gary A]

Have you ever thought of taking up a hobby that you need to learn about? I took up astronomy about 7 years ago, read a few articles to spark my interest then went the whole hog and bought a telescope. I found it to be a brilliant way to occupy the mind, it also makes you feel quite humble.

Other than that, I just play golf, football or snooker, and spend a lot more time in the pub than I probably should.

[RosieBelle]

This is me all over! My job can be really horrible and make me really anxious and panicky, but I would rather be at work keeping my mind busy and distracted from the anxious and depressed thoughts.
I'm thinking maybe I've got depression as I can't concentrate on watching tv, so I find myself bored when I'm off work and worried about getting through the day without enough to distract my mind - it sucks :doh:

[MyNameIsTerry]

I used to enjoy my work and my outside life. Work eventually took over and I had a breakdown. Prior to that I had lived on stress for over a decade.

When I got myself back to work I immersed myself in it. Things got much better but after a few years I relapsed when I withdrew from Cit and was hit with some low mood issues and questioning of my life whilst being hammered with work worse than ever.

What I realised was that I stopped working on my remaining issues and also used my work as a safety behaviour. It was a safety behaviour because I was avoiding sitting with my thoughts and the feelings when not distracted by the focus of my work goals.

I was working weekends, at night, on holiday and even waking up and getting on with analysis whilst still in bed. That was at the height of the safety behaviour.

[bin tenn]

I don't allow myself time to wander into negative thought processes anymore, but I definitely find myself bored. Pacing, staring blankly at TV, etc. Been that way for a long time. I have several hobbies, but they rotate. LoL. One week I may be into doing computer stuff (also my job), another week all I do is write/record/produce music, another week I just play video games, other weeks I just want to go fishing. The whole "find a hobby" thing has not worked for me long term. xD

[swajj]

I'm like Binn in that finding a hobby didn't really work for me either. The problem is that whilst you may be engaged in the hobby the little voice inside your head isn't. I think that people with HA have a tendency to isolate themselves or for other reasons don't get to socialise with other people much. If you are actually interacting with other people it is harder to focus on whatever symptoms you are worried about at the time. So maybe it isn't the astronomy that is helping you Gary, maybe it is the socialising down the pub. lol

[ServerError]

To answer your question, yes, I like you.

[swgrl09]

I feel similarly. I have a really stressful job that takes a lot out of me. However when I get home, i.e. tonight, I can get really restless. I am bored right now even though I am exhausted. So I did yoga and cleaned! So much for rest.

[Gary A]

I'm like Binn in that finding a hobby didn't really work for me either. The problem is that whilst you may be engaged in the hobby the little voice inside your head isn't. I think that people with HA have a tendency to isolate themselves or for other reasons don't get to socialise with other people much. If you are actually interacting with other people it is harder to focus on whatever symptoms you are worried about at the time. So maybe it isn't the astronomy that is helping you Gary, maybe it is the socialising down the pub. lol

My grandad used to say that if you don't find the answers to your problems at the bottom of a bottle, put your drink in a glass instead.

[MyNameIsTerry]

I don't allow myself time to wander into negative thought processes anymore, but I definitely find myself bored. Pacing, staring blankly at TV, etc. Been that way for a long time. I have several hobbies, but they rotate. LoL. One week I may be into doing computer stuff (also my job), another week all I do is write/record/produce music, another week I just play video games, other weeks I just want to go fishing. The whole "find a hobby" thing has not worked for me long term. xD


I'm like Binn in that finding a hobby didn't really work for me either. The problem is that whilst you may be engaged in the hobby the little voice inside your head isn't. I think that people with HA have a tendency to isolate themselves or for other reasons don't get to socialise with other people much. If you are actually interacting with other people it is harder to focus on whatever symptoms you are worried about at the time. So maybe it isn't the astronomy that is helping you Gary, maybe it is the socialising down the pub. lol

I'm the same. Whilst change & uncertainty issues mean just starting something, and sticking with it, are traditional triggers for me it fades. I get into it more with other people. But it doesn't address some of my anxiety issues other than in an indirect manner.

It's like using acceptance without also exposing yourself to new things. You end up fine but only in your controlled environment. My relapse taught me this was another one of anxiety's many traps. So, I don't believe in a passive only strategy as it depends on luck.

[almamatters]

My job is pretty stressful and emotional but I actually dread days off and annual leave, it's the lack of routine and purpose when I'm at home. I also do far too much thinking when I'm not distracted. I have started trying to make plans for my days off, but I have trouble sticking to them and end up sitting at home feeling anxious.

[KeeKee]

I'm the complete opposite of everybody here it would seem. Whilst I haven't worked for quite a while now, when I did and had days where I felt really low, I couldn't do my work. I felt homesick and very, very uncomfortable like I was in a room full of strangers. I couldn't wait to get home and getting up on the morning to go to work was horrible. My job wasn't even bad. If I didn't have mental health problems I'd love a job like that.

I can distract myself from my anxiety, buy definitely not from my low moods. I feel unbelievably stressed being around others. In the town, on the bus etc. I just want to cry.

It does get boring sitting at home all day, but having felt stressed continuously for the last 18 months I honestly think I'd flip if I had to go to work feeling the way I feel, as I used to get very stressed going to work and I didn't have the issues I have now.

[GlassPinata]

Im curious, if there are others out there like me.

Im a workaholic that hates his job yet has no idea what to do when Im off.

I literally pace or sit and stare blankly at the TV. Eventually the boredom will allow my mind to wander and that is NEVER a good thing and I usually end up priming my mind and then chasing evidence to prove that its true.

I can get like that sometimes, especially on the weekends when my son is visiting his dad. I try to occupy my mind with video games or read a book, but sometimes I can't focus and feel at loose ends. It sucks.

[Ethansmom]

I'm the same way. I sometimes just sit on the couch not knowing what to do with myself. I have total OCD, so am always so in tune with how my body is feeling.

[MyNameIsTerry]

I'm the same way. I sometimes just sit on the couch not knowing what to do with myself. I have total OCD, so am always so in tune with how my body is feeling.

What's total OCD?

[Sphincterclench]

Maybe I should also add I work from home, so I never really leave home.

There is a very significant mental health aspect of not being able to separate home and work. I used to think it would be awesome, yet another think I thought that was the complete opposite.