KrazyK
16-01-17, 13:56
I am going crazy at myself atm. I just cannot control my anxiety at all. The fact I am 26w pregnant is not helping of course. I am constantly crying and getting upset about silly things I know shouldn't bother me.
But.....
Two weeks ago I passed my driving test. Yay to me :yesyes: This weekend we bought a new car that I am able to drive but is also big enough for our growing family (we already have a 3yo)
It's my dream car. The Kia Sportage. I had to drive it home from the dealership and my husband drove back with our son. It was fine, of course I was far from perfect. The car is large and I learnt in a teeny car. Overall it was ok though.
Then all Sat night I couldnt stop crying. I was scared to drive the car again.
Yesterday my husband took me out driving so I could adjust to the new car and have the safety of him being with me. (When in public I am always much happier when he is with me) I drove for a total of around 3hrs on and off with swapping seats n going in couple of shops. On way home I stalled..... and again..... and again.....
I ended up in the middle of a traffic light controlled junction with a car right up my arse (despite the fact i had stalled she didnt back off) and a bus coming straight at me (he was obviously waiting but was rather close and petrifying) i couldnt calm myself down n went into panic mode. My husband ran round n got in n drove rest way home.
I could not stop crying all evening. I would just burst into tears. I have been having awful heart palputations and am now really fearful. My husband has been great and said he is confident I will be ok on my own again. He said if anything like that happens again to take 2seconds n centre myself as then i will be able to regain control quicker.
My problem is... I have to drive to the hospital this afternoon. I have to drive there, park, and drive home by myself.
I am so scared although we did the trip twice yesterday with me driving (even went in the car park)
I know how to drive, I wouldnt have passed my test if I couldnt. I know I am being irrational and overthinking it all and once I get in the car I will be fine, I will just get on with it.
All morning my hearts being going crazy. I keep randomly bursting into tears and my hands keep shaking. I cannot concentrate on anything n feel sick to my stomach (although that may be pregnancy related)
How do I get this feeling to go away? Right now I dont even want to get in the car. I have to leave at about 12.45 and I am so scared. :scared15:
---------- Post added at 13:56 ---------- Previous post was at 10:58 ----------
More proof it's all irrational.....
I have arrived and my drive was exactly as it should be. I even parked between two cars (although i drove in was a car behind me so didnt want to attempt to reverse in)
Now at my app and feeling more confident... i know my confidence will grow each day and I need to try and ignore these nasty demons (being pregnant and off my meds is not a good time for change:doh:)
Onward and up. Heres to ignoring the demon voice inside my head!!!:yesyes:
But.....
Two weeks ago I passed my driving test. Yay to me :yesyes: This weekend we bought a new car that I am able to drive but is also big enough for our growing family (we already have a 3yo)
It's my dream car. The Kia Sportage. I had to drive it home from the dealership and my husband drove back with our son. It was fine, of course I was far from perfect. The car is large and I learnt in a teeny car. Overall it was ok though.
Then all Sat night I couldnt stop crying. I was scared to drive the car again.
Yesterday my husband took me out driving so I could adjust to the new car and have the safety of him being with me. (When in public I am always much happier when he is with me) I drove for a total of around 3hrs on and off with swapping seats n going in couple of shops. On way home I stalled..... and again..... and again.....
I ended up in the middle of a traffic light controlled junction with a car right up my arse (despite the fact i had stalled she didnt back off) and a bus coming straight at me (he was obviously waiting but was rather close and petrifying) i couldnt calm myself down n went into panic mode. My husband ran round n got in n drove rest way home.
I could not stop crying all evening. I would just burst into tears. I have been having awful heart palputations and am now really fearful. My husband has been great and said he is confident I will be ok on my own again. He said if anything like that happens again to take 2seconds n centre myself as then i will be able to regain control quicker.
My problem is... I have to drive to the hospital this afternoon. I have to drive there, park, and drive home by myself.
I am so scared although we did the trip twice yesterday with me driving (even went in the car park)
I know how to drive, I wouldnt have passed my test if I couldnt. I know I am being irrational and overthinking it all and once I get in the car I will be fine, I will just get on with it.
All morning my hearts being going crazy. I keep randomly bursting into tears and my hands keep shaking. I cannot concentrate on anything n feel sick to my stomach (although that may be pregnancy related)
How do I get this feeling to go away? Right now I dont even want to get in the car. I have to leave at about 12.45 and I am so scared. :scared15:
---------- Post added at 13:56 ---------- Previous post was at 10:58 ----------
More proof it's all irrational.....
I have arrived and my drive was exactly as it should be. I even parked between two cars (although i drove in was a car behind me so didnt want to attempt to reverse in)
Now at my app and feeling more confident... i know my confidence will grow each day and I need to try and ignore these nasty demons (being pregnant and off my meds is not a good time for change:doh:)
Onward and up. Heres to ignoring the demon voice inside my head!!!:yesyes: