Vanda
29-01-17, 13:44
Hello everyone,
I've stumbled upon this corner of cyberspace while googling amitriptyline. It's a new medication for me because now on top of many, many years managing depression and anxiety, it seems I now have fibromyalgia on top as a special treat. This coupled with being peri menopausal has made my days difficult, to say the least.
I've been on a variety of meds to a greater or lesser extent for a long time and have had long periods where life has been quite together and I've been 'drug free'. And during these times I've convinced myself that I'm 'superwoman' again and can be fabulously successful at everything I touch. I'm not. Life teaches me the same lesson time and time again and I am just not getting it!
Anxiety is more of a difficulty for me than depression. Night time panic attacks and inability to stay asleep make nights a real challenge. And now my body is letting me down as well and I'm prone to feeling despair as to what the future holds. So I try to 'stay in the moment'. I'm a long time spiritual seeker and I now view myself as a practicing Buddhist. I've meditated for years and mindfulness is a lifeline to me. After much soul searching I've had to go back on meds (fluoxetine, diazepam, zopiclone, amitriptyline in various combinations). I've reconciled myself to the thought that medication is an act of self compassion at this time and not an emblem of failure.
In addition to my own difficulties, I have an adult son living with me who is on the autism spectrum. He has tremendous problems with his mental health, especially anxiety. I have felt very entangled in his wellbeing for my own and have undergone psychotherapy to help me unravel things.
And the final thing to share here is that I have worked with adults who have severe/enduring mental health problems for many years. Currently I work for floating support services dealing with homelessness primarily.
I've probably shared enough now (hopefully not too much). I'm looking forward to sharing this space with you all.
Metta :bighug1:
I've stumbled upon this corner of cyberspace while googling amitriptyline. It's a new medication for me because now on top of many, many years managing depression and anxiety, it seems I now have fibromyalgia on top as a special treat. This coupled with being peri menopausal has made my days difficult, to say the least.
I've been on a variety of meds to a greater or lesser extent for a long time and have had long periods where life has been quite together and I've been 'drug free'. And during these times I've convinced myself that I'm 'superwoman' again and can be fabulously successful at everything I touch. I'm not. Life teaches me the same lesson time and time again and I am just not getting it!
Anxiety is more of a difficulty for me than depression. Night time panic attacks and inability to stay asleep make nights a real challenge. And now my body is letting me down as well and I'm prone to feeling despair as to what the future holds. So I try to 'stay in the moment'. I'm a long time spiritual seeker and I now view myself as a practicing Buddhist. I've meditated for years and mindfulness is a lifeline to me. After much soul searching I've had to go back on meds (fluoxetine, diazepam, zopiclone, amitriptyline in various combinations). I've reconciled myself to the thought that medication is an act of self compassion at this time and not an emblem of failure.
In addition to my own difficulties, I have an adult son living with me who is on the autism spectrum. He has tremendous problems with his mental health, especially anxiety. I have felt very entangled in his wellbeing for my own and have undergone psychotherapy to help me unravel things.
And the final thing to share here is that I have worked with adults who have severe/enduring mental health problems for many years. Currently I work for floating support services dealing with homelessness primarily.
I've probably shared enough now (hopefully not too much). I'm looking forward to sharing this space with you all.
Metta :bighug1: