Hzrt
17-02-17, 06:27
Hi!
I am an 18 year old male. For the past one and a half month I have been suffering from horrific existential anxiety. It started with a panic attack about dying and then reading philosophy. I feel so scared and powerless and life seems meaningless and pointless. My mind is continuously racing with thoughts of universe, existence, mortality. I can not enjoy anything- I keep on thinking that this is temporary and everything will end. Then I look at the world like a temporary place to visit, like how difficult it would be to say goodbye to sunshine. Suddenly feeling alive feels uncommon and being dead is more common.
This is truly frightening and I feel that I will never be able to be normal again. I feel everything is a distraction and waste. I also feel that I am developing a fear of sky and also of endless universe and time. It is so difficult to be present here and now, even if I tell myself that these are thoughts but then I soon realise that it is the truth only but was hidden from me. I cannot rationally tell myself to stop. I just sleep for half of the day to stop worrying. I cannot eat or study like before.
I am soon seeing a psychiatrist but how can I explain these thoughts? Also if someone was able to overcome them please share how.
I am an 18 year old male. For the past one and a half month I have been suffering from horrific existential anxiety. It started with a panic attack about dying and then reading philosophy. I feel so scared and powerless and life seems meaningless and pointless. My mind is continuously racing with thoughts of universe, existence, mortality. I can not enjoy anything- I keep on thinking that this is temporary and everything will end. Then I look at the world like a temporary place to visit, like how difficult it would be to say goodbye to sunshine. Suddenly feeling alive feels uncommon and being dead is more common.
This is truly frightening and I feel that I will never be able to be normal again. I feel everything is a distraction and waste. I also feel that I am developing a fear of sky and also of endless universe and time. It is so difficult to be present here and now, even if I tell myself that these are thoughts but then I soon realise that it is the truth only but was hidden from me. I cannot rationally tell myself to stop. I just sleep for half of the day to stop worrying. I cannot eat or study like before.
I am soon seeing a psychiatrist but how can I explain these thoughts? Also if someone was able to overcome them please share how.