Funkyfireplace
18-02-17, 20:36
Hi all. I'm new to No More Panic. I'm hoping that the website and forum will help me. To be honest I'm at rock bottom at the moment. My anxiety started approximatley 10 years ago in the form of health anxiety. I had a rought ride with it and it contributed to the breakdown of my previous marriage. I blame myself for this. I remarried last year to a wonderful women who I adore but we have recently hit a rocky patch. My anxiety has come back quite severely over the last few months mainly due to the stress of my previous job. I had a bit of a breakdown over xmas 2016. I have found a new job and have kind of come out the otherside. However my wife has just told me that she wants to call it a day when her son finishes his GCSE's in 2018 and that she will be moving back to Manchester. To say I was devasted to hear this was an understatement. She suffers from anxiety herself and I know I have not been easy to deal with during the past few months. Just as i thought I was starting to feel better this hammer blow hits and i feel entirely responsible. I am on anti depressants and I am reciving councilling which I feel is helping. I don't want to loose my wife. She has said she is willing to work at things over next 12 months but I've convinced myself that she has already made her mind up. I feel lonely, isolated overcome most days woth a sense of utter dread and panic as to what the future may hold. I start my new job in a week and I need to be firing on all cylinders with it to make it work. I don't feel ready.
Any help/advice from anyone who has been through something similar much appreciated. Thankyou
Any help/advice from anyone who has been through something similar much appreciated. Thankyou