Quinz1986
26-02-17, 07:25
Hello everyone! I'm happy to have found a forum where I can openly discuss about my anxiety. I'm a 29 year old lady who has been living with anxiety since I moved to this new country from my home country. I'm not exactly sure how it all started but after a few months of me moving here I started having anxiety/panic attacks.
I was a happy lady before all of this, a lady who loves traveling, going to the beach, going out with friends but all of these has changed. Right now I can barely leave my house and my work is getting affected. Whenever I ride any kind of transportation whether public or private I have panic attacks. I feel like I'm going to pass out, my heart beats so fast, I have a hard time breathing and I feel like crying. My anxiety stemmed from me having Irritable Bowel Syndrome which I also had when I moved to the place where I'm at right now.
The reason why I have a panic attack when I'm traveling is because I have a phobia of crapping my pants and not being able to go to the bathroom. When I see traffic or when I feel like there's no bathroom nearby this is when my panic attack starts and it keeps building up and building up until I feel like I have to escape. One time while in transit and I felt my stomach was acting up I felt like jumping out of the car just to relieve myself.
However if the public transport or the vehicle that I ride in has a washroom I don't have a panic attack. When I take the train/metro and I know that the next stop is only 1 minute away I don't have panic attack because I know if ever I do feel like relieving myself I can hold it in for 1 minute.
Interestingly when I went home to my home country I didn't have any panic attack because i know that if ever i do feel like relieving myself I can always get off the road and walk to the nearest washroom. Or I can knock in people's houses and use their washroom. If only I can do that here I wouldn't have had a panic attack.
I really need help on how to deal with this. I can't live my life, if I can still call this life, constantly saying NO to people inviting me out for fear that I will have an IBS attack which causes my anxiety attack.
Please help. BTW I always have my Imodium in my bag and when I feel like I'm starting to have a panic attack I take it. I know it's bad to take this all the time but it somehow helps depending on the severity of my attack that day.:weep::weep::weep:
I was a happy lady before all of this, a lady who loves traveling, going to the beach, going out with friends but all of these has changed. Right now I can barely leave my house and my work is getting affected. Whenever I ride any kind of transportation whether public or private I have panic attacks. I feel like I'm going to pass out, my heart beats so fast, I have a hard time breathing and I feel like crying. My anxiety stemmed from me having Irritable Bowel Syndrome which I also had when I moved to the place where I'm at right now.
The reason why I have a panic attack when I'm traveling is because I have a phobia of crapping my pants and not being able to go to the bathroom. When I see traffic or when I feel like there's no bathroom nearby this is when my panic attack starts and it keeps building up and building up until I feel like I have to escape. One time while in transit and I felt my stomach was acting up I felt like jumping out of the car just to relieve myself.
However if the public transport or the vehicle that I ride in has a washroom I don't have a panic attack. When I take the train/metro and I know that the next stop is only 1 minute away I don't have panic attack because I know if ever I do feel like relieving myself I can hold it in for 1 minute.
Interestingly when I went home to my home country I didn't have any panic attack because i know that if ever i do feel like relieving myself I can always get off the road and walk to the nearest washroom. Or I can knock in people's houses and use their washroom. If only I can do that here I wouldn't have had a panic attack.
I really need help on how to deal with this. I can't live my life, if I can still call this life, constantly saying NO to people inviting me out for fear that I will have an IBS attack which causes my anxiety attack.
Please help. BTW I always have my Imodium in my bag and when I feel like I'm starting to have a panic attack I take it. I know it's bad to take this all the time but it somehow helps depending on the severity of my attack that day.:weep::weep::weep: