Mazzii342
26-02-17, 21:04
I'm fed up. My anxious thoughts have started to really affect my work once again. A couple of years ago my anxiety and depression caused issues at my workplace. I found myself getting later and later, calling in sick, not caring about my hygiene to an extant it was picked up on at work etc. I also found myself crying over small things. It's back again. I have a different job now, and I think because it's in it's early stages that's why I'm so anxious. Perhaps. I keep thinking of excuses. Lying about big things. I've told them things like my Mum's in hospital etc. I missed a day due to being sick, which was actually genuine. The latest 'reason' for missing work was that I had my bag "stolen". Actually, I lost my debit card and had no money to get there. I even went to the bank to get money out, but it's a sunday and it's closed. But I could have easily borrowed the money off my friend next door, instead I lied and told them I was robbed.
Yesterday I went in, and found out I had missed a day of work during the week, and I got so embarrassed and anxious that I walked out and went back home. It's getting regular and I have a feeling they're going to get sick of it. I haven't been there long, and I was only supposed to be a Christmas temp but they kept me on so I really don't want to give them an excuse to sack me or tell me they don't need me anymore, so I really don't feel like I can tell them about my deteriorating mental health.
Basically has anybody any advice? Anybody feel similarly? I'm feeling very alone and tired of being laid in my bed all day and all night too anxious to go to uni or work. I've missed two weeks of university after a mini breakdown I had and then my illness. Shall I go to the doctor? What will they do for me? I'm just so tired.
Yesterday I went in, and found out I had missed a day of work during the week, and I got so embarrassed and anxious that I walked out and went back home. It's getting regular and I have a feeling they're going to get sick of it. I haven't been there long, and I was only supposed to be a Christmas temp but they kept me on so I really don't want to give them an excuse to sack me or tell me they don't need me anymore, so I really don't feel like I can tell them about my deteriorating mental health.
Basically has anybody any advice? Anybody feel similarly? I'm feeling very alone and tired of being laid in my bed all day and all night too anxious to go to uni or work. I've missed two weeks of university after a mini breakdown I had and then my illness. Shall I go to the doctor? What will they do for me? I'm just so tired.