YoungHon
01-03-17, 21:54
I'm gay and I now can no longer think about having sex without thinking about pathogens entering my bloodstream. I have it in my mind that gay sex = disease. Even if I use condoms I'm still going to worry about the STDs you can contract from oral or protected intercourse.
I've been very promiscuous in the past and have slipped up before and I can't get over the fact that I put myself at big risk. I will never forgive myself. I'm now beginning to hate myself for even being gay to begin with.
Has anyone else decided to abstain from sex because of their anxiety? And how long for? I'm thinking it would be wise for me to abstain until I am in a long term relationship, but even then I would be very worried about him cheating on me and getting infected that way.
I've been very promiscuous in the past and have slipped up before and I can't get over the fact that I put myself at big risk. I will never forgive myself. I'm now beginning to hate myself for even being gay to begin with.
Has anyone else decided to abstain from sex because of their anxiety? And how long for? I'm thinking it would be wise for me to abstain until I am in a long term relationship, but even then I would be very worried about him cheating on me and getting infected that way.