Lakme
06-03-17, 05:52
Hello. I haven't been here in a while. The last time I posted here was after I landed in the emergency due to a reaction to the antidepressants my doctor gave me. I landed in the ER once again due to waking up with bad chest pain for a couple weeks. I'm trying to do a test for h pylori due to my digestive problems because I'm convinced that it is causing a myriad of my problems. However, I get constipated for days on end which is making it harder to put my mind at rest because I can't deliver a sample any time sooner. My eyes are dry and I've got swollen glands under my chin. My joints get swollen sometimes and whenever I take fish oil it seems to make all of these symptoms better. I think I may have Sjögren's syndrome. Anyhow, not only have I been worried about having stomach cancer or something else, but I started to convince myself that it spread to my bones (which sounds ridiculous, I know.) There's this bone in my vertebrae that sticks out and when I touch it it feels like it's bigger than the others and it curves inward. I showed this both to my GP and the ER doctor and they both said it was normal, that sort of calmed my nerves, but now I've becomed obsessed with this lump of my skull/occipital bone and I keep messing with it. My blood tests were perfectly fine, both one that I received from GP several months ago, and the one in the ER last week, and so was a chest X Ray , but I've been very tired and stressed out lately. I am trying desperately to find out what is wrong with me so that I can begin college and work but some days I find it hard to get out of bed. I have seen that some who contract h pylori develop severe health anxiety and I don't think that could be any closer to the truth. There are a lot of things going on with me right now and it's debilitating to say the least. I just need some comfort and reassurance so I can keep moving forward. When I was sitting in the ER I was convinced that when everything came back they were going to tell me that I was dying and I was going to try my best to accept the end, and I couldn't be more surprised to find that they still couldn't find anything abnormal, even after all of this time, which is comforting but not it in the way I would like it to be.
I realize the absurdity of some of what I'm saying, but I haven't been myself lately, especially with the excessive fatigue. I've been sleeping 12 hours and having sleep disturbances to go along with it. I can't seem to catch a break. Thanks.
I realize the absurdity of some of what I'm saying, but I haven't been myself lately, especially with the excessive fatigue. I've been sleeping 12 hours and having sleep disturbances to go along with it. I can't seem to catch a break. Thanks.