omegamv6
06-03-17, 15:25
Afternoon all,
Where do l start? for the last couple of weeks l have gone from being a normal person to an absolute worried and real anxious person. A few weeks ago l was feeling pain in my ankles and joints and noticed l was feeling weak, l then STUPIDLY went on google and hey presto it said l was suffering from MND/ALS!!
As you can imagine life has never been the same since, l read all there is about this awful illness and suddenly l was convinced l am suffering from it. l saw my GP who said not to go on the internet and that he will check my blood for thyroid function, this came back clear however l was still not convinced and he said at that point, in his 30 years as a GP he has only come across the MND illness twice, he prescribed me Propranolol and said just calm down and move on.
Over the next few days l was still experencing numbness, pain and feeling weak, l at this point stupidly went again on the internet and learnt about Bulbar onset and its symptoms and guess what? yes l was suddenly now looking at my tongue, having swallowing issues, and the one that is really freaking me out l am convinced l am slurring my speech!! ( not that anyone has said anything, and l ask all the time!!)
lt was at this point that l could not sit around anymore, and last friday l went to see a Private Neurologist, who seeing me burst out into laughter and said YOU DO NOT HAVE THIS ILLNESS!! he then performed his exams and was satisfied, l mentioned further tests but he said no. He said l should get help for my anxiety as this is now taking over.
l have now had the benefit of 5 Medical opinions who all say it is my mind palying games, however l am still for some reason not convinced about my speech, l speak two languages and l am finding that since learning about Bulbar l just happen to be now speaking jubbled not fluent, is this a conincidence?
Now when ever l speak l am forever trying to analyse if l am going wrong, please can someone tell me if my anxiety is really taking me over:weep:
Sorry for the long post
Joel
Where do l start? for the last couple of weeks l have gone from being a normal person to an absolute worried and real anxious person. A few weeks ago l was feeling pain in my ankles and joints and noticed l was feeling weak, l then STUPIDLY went on google and hey presto it said l was suffering from MND/ALS!!
As you can imagine life has never been the same since, l read all there is about this awful illness and suddenly l was convinced l am suffering from it. l saw my GP who said not to go on the internet and that he will check my blood for thyroid function, this came back clear however l was still not convinced and he said at that point, in his 30 years as a GP he has only come across the MND illness twice, he prescribed me Propranolol and said just calm down and move on.
Over the next few days l was still experencing numbness, pain and feeling weak, l at this point stupidly went again on the internet and learnt about Bulbar onset and its symptoms and guess what? yes l was suddenly now looking at my tongue, having swallowing issues, and the one that is really freaking me out l am convinced l am slurring my speech!! ( not that anyone has said anything, and l ask all the time!!)
lt was at this point that l could not sit around anymore, and last friday l went to see a Private Neurologist, who seeing me burst out into laughter and said YOU DO NOT HAVE THIS ILLNESS!! he then performed his exams and was satisfied, l mentioned further tests but he said no. He said l should get help for my anxiety as this is now taking over.
l have now had the benefit of 5 Medical opinions who all say it is my mind palying games, however l am still for some reason not convinced about my speech, l speak two languages and l am finding that since learning about Bulbar l just happen to be now speaking jubbled not fluent, is this a conincidence?
Now when ever l speak l am forever trying to analyse if l am going wrong, please can someone tell me if my anxiety is really taking me over:weep:
Sorry for the long post
Joel