Worrywart1234
07-03-17, 10:54
Please forgive the long post. I am new to this forum, and you all seem so encouraging that I am just going to lay it all out for you. I'm hoping for some logical positivity...
About 4 years ago I had my adrenal gland removed along with a benign tumour. During the surgery, a major vein was accidentally cut and I almost died. I ended up having 2 surgeries and on life support for a couple of days.
Anyway, a year or 2 later they found a small tumour on my other adrenal gland. I think everyone on here knows what I've been going through ever since...
My doctor has told me it is very small and stable - but it does need to be checked on this year, or she said she would even be happy to leave it til next year. She also said that a CT scan does not automatically mean surgery (because I asked) and is referring me to see a psychologist.
I feel in the best physical shape I've been in for years and have no symptoms, but I can't help being terrified that when I have the scan I will be told I have cancer and will need an operation and I will end up dead.
I also have to have an endoscopy this year because of some thickening they found in a little bit of my intestines in the same scan. The specialist at the hospital told me it was most likely nothing, maybe Crohn's disease... but again, I am terrified they will find cancer and say I need surgery that will also kill me.
Logically, I know I am feeling the best I have in 4 years and have been told by doctors that things are ok. But I live with a constant feeling of dread and terror and just don't know how to talk myself out of it.
Please help me see that I am ok....
About 4 years ago I had my adrenal gland removed along with a benign tumour. During the surgery, a major vein was accidentally cut and I almost died. I ended up having 2 surgeries and on life support for a couple of days.
Anyway, a year or 2 later they found a small tumour on my other adrenal gland. I think everyone on here knows what I've been going through ever since...
My doctor has told me it is very small and stable - but it does need to be checked on this year, or she said she would even be happy to leave it til next year. She also said that a CT scan does not automatically mean surgery (because I asked) and is referring me to see a psychologist.
I feel in the best physical shape I've been in for years and have no symptoms, but I can't help being terrified that when I have the scan I will be told I have cancer and will need an operation and I will end up dead.
I also have to have an endoscopy this year because of some thickening they found in a little bit of my intestines in the same scan. The specialist at the hospital told me it was most likely nothing, maybe Crohn's disease... but again, I am terrified they will find cancer and say I need surgery that will also kill me.
Logically, I know I am feeling the best I have in 4 years and have been told by doctors that things are ok. But I live with a constant feeling of dread and terror and just don't know how to talk myself out of it.
Please help me see that I am ok....