RandomGeeza
09-03-17, 19:28
In a nutshell, 7 months ago (August 2016) I suffered a major health scare and ended up admitted and operated on. Google Bullectomy, Pleurectomy and Pleurodisis for the details if you are interested. It was a scary and very unforgiving time. When I came round from the anaesthetic I had my first (of many) panic attacks, demanding that my family leave me and refusing to take the opioid pain killers, I was on a morphine driver. The recovery nurse was very caring and sorted me out. However, things have never been the same since.
Within a month of the operation I had a nervous breakdown, as a result of health anxiety and body mistrust issues. I was prescribed 15mg of Mirtazapine. I was an outpatient of the local Mental Health Crisis Unit and I also found a private therapist. Things took a turn for the better and for a few months things were great. There was the occasional blip, but that is life.
Fast forward to December of last year (2016) and I relapse, for no apparent reason other than remembering that I was an anxiety sufferer. Within days I was back to the horrible feelings of self doubt, second guessing, intrusive thoughts, and the impending sense of doom that happens in relation to everything, life in general. The Dr. increased the dosage to 30mg.
Once again things settle for a while, maybe four weeks at most. I then relapse again. This time quicker and harder than the first time. The Dr. increases the dosage to 45mg daily.
Fast forward to present day, today. And yes, it is starting again and has been building for the last 48 hours.
My question, should I be feeling like this at this stage and at this dose. My gut tells me that something is wrong, that this is the wrong path of recovery for me. And yet mr Dr. insists that this is how it should be...
Anyone with experience of Mirtazapine and anxiety that can offer their view would be appreciated. I am sooooo desperate and scared of relapsing yet again...
Thanks in advance.
Within a month of the operation I had a nervous breakdown, as a result of health anxiety and body mistrust issues. I was prescribed 15mg of Mirtazapine. I was an outpatient of the local Mental Health Crisis Unit and I also found a private therapist. Things took a turn for the better and for a few months things were great. There was the occasional blip, but that is life.
Fast forward to December of last year (2016) and I relapse, for no apparent reason other than remembering that I was an anxiety sufferer. Within days I was back to the horrible feelings of self doubt, second guessing, intrusive thoughts, and the impending sense of doom that happens in relation to everything, life in general. The Dr. increased the dosage to 30mg.
Once again things settle for a while, maybe four weeks at most. I then relapse again. This time quicker and harder than the first time. The Dr. increases the dosage to 45mg daily.
Fast forward to present day, today. And yes, it is starting again and has been building for the last 48 hours.
My question, should I be feeling like this at this stage and at this dose. My gut tells me that something is wrong, that this is the wrong path of recovery for me. And yet mr Dr. insists that this is how it should be...
Anyone with experience of Mirtazapine and anxiety that can offer their view would be appreciated. I am sooooo desperate and scared of relapsing yet again...
Thanks in advance.