D Ray Morton
18-03-17, 22:06
Wrote a few posts, but ill try be totally honest in this thread and as rational as I can be after a bit of support if possible. (Bare with me for the length but I just feel like I want to get some of this off my chest)
Ive had health anxiety on and off for maybe 15 years/ panic attacks since late 2008 early 2009.
Which has featured many symptons. From chest pain and dodgy breathing in early years, to panic attacks, constant stiff neck, numb hands, palpatations, pins and needles. muscle issues fatigue and many more.
In the time ive had good times and bad with it like most people. But this time (since the summer) has been the worst yet. Its been the most frequent id say. In past is have a panic attack and next day would be ok. This time the symptons rarely go away and I always feel ill bar the odd day.
I spend full days trying to work and live like a normal person on edge of a some kind of panic attack, feeling off odd at all times. Even exercise now makes me out of breathe easy i boil up and sweat loads needing water and also spend the full night in bed in a panic state.
Ive been getting pins and needles in my feet and up my legs, my hands are numb a lot and shake. All my leg muscles feel tight, feel faint/hot, tingling skin(like a goosebumps feeling when you hear a good song but in a bad way which is constant and also feels pricky like burning sensation). My breathing is bad at times from a kind indegestion(acid bile at back of throat), during all this nauseous and sometimes be sick just the acid and that kind of feeling not really throwing up as such.
I have had cbt in 2013 and it helped to talk to someone. But didnt help that much long term. I just kind of got better on my own and no idea how(with odd bout when i was ill) Id just love to get back to just that.
I am not on medication at the moment took citralapram for 2 years in 2009. Which helped at start but in the end no. I was given beta blockers off doc for bit times of panic, but i felt they got me down and hindered my breathing. Though did chill me a little.
I have a b12 deficiany and got 6 injections last 2 weeks. So I was hoping a lot of physical symptoms would of faded they did a little but now im back to sq one. So all bloods bar that came back ok. I had mri for a head pain 2years ago and was fine. But I guess I am worried about other muscle diseases or nerve ones now, i think that this time all the pins and needles in legs(constantly not just through a panic attack i mean daily all day but then somedays are better than others) is this silly of me after bloods etc came back ok and mri from few yrs ago?
I havent felt relaxed for a long time i mean odd day i feel bit better i can a little but in hindsight i havent.
The hardest thing for me this time. My life baring a good relationship is really good business going well(when i am able to work) love where i live very lucky to have good friends and family etc. I have done everything my power this time stayed positive for months and months. Tried to meditiate, remember cbt coping, ask for help, eat well and just generally try to help myself. But lately im at wits end and so lost.
Been to a and e twice for the pins and needles in legs and they said its nothing to worry about(tho didnt do any tests) docs tell me its anxiety but what do I do to try get better than I am already doing?
I put in for more cbt and im 7mth into a 9mth waiting list. The only thing i stayed off was meds as found them hard when coming off them last time. Although there is a big % of me that knows this is anxiety I still think (irrationally knowing what i know) what if its MS what it its xxxx. And at times of panic and the constant illness and fatigue i struggle so bad to be rational and of sound mind.
So frustrating I look at people in street and think im so glad for you you dont have this. Its costing me things in life. I was a top poker player and had to quit more a less, other things have suffered i live life at 60%, it would be unfair to start a relationship with a girl now feeling like this, and im just totally out of ideas and at the moment i can honestly say it doesnt feel like this will ever go away.
Ive worked all week very hard which was at times so tough. As i lie here typing my full body is aching, odd pains sensations pins and needles up legs and feet and im boiling up, dizzy numb hands esp left and stiff neck( i may or not be a little ill at moment also I just cant tell what is what anymore : (
I just know I cant deal with feeling ill or anything to do with health when I feel ok i feel fine and so happy. But sadly that doesnt happen at all now and i cant even exercise ive tried 5times and i feel horrible after when it always used to help me.
Sorry if this sounded like i was whinging or complaining i just wanted to see if this sounds familiar or just not right. I have panic attacks all day not just 20mins like it says online.
Thanks for reading if you got this far and any msgs help suggestions would be great. I think i may have to try meds again.
Ive had health anxiety on and off for maybe 15 years/ panic attacks since late 2008 early 2009.
Which has featured many symptons. From chest pain and dodgy breathing in early years, to panic attacks, constant stiff neck, numb hands, palpatations, pins and needles. muscle issues fatigue and many more.
In the time ive had good times and bad with it like most people. But this time (since the summer) has been the worst yet. Its been the most frequent id say. In past is have a panic attack and next day would be ok. This time the symptons rarely go away and I always feel ill bar the odd day.
I spend full days trying to work and live like a normal person on edge of a some kind of panic attack, feeling off odd at all times. Even exercise now makes me out of breathe easy i boil up and sweat loads needing water and also spend the full night in bed in a panic state.
Ive been getting pins and needles in my feet and up my legs, my hands are numb a lot and shake. All my leg muscles feel tight, feel faint/hot, tingling skin(like a goosebumps feeling when you hear a good song but in a bad way which is constant and also feels pricky like burning sensation). My breathing is bad at times from a kind indegestion(acid bile at back of throat), during all this nauseous and sometimes be sick just the acid and that kind of feeling not really throwing up as such.
I have had cbt in 2013 and it helped to talk to someone. But didnt help that much long term. I just kind of got better on my own and no idea how(with odd bout when i was ill) Id just love to get back to just that.
I am not on medication at the moment took citralapram for 2 years in 2009. Which helped at start but in the end no. I was given beta blockers off doc for bit times of panic, but i felt they got me down and hindered my breathing. Though did chill me a little.
I have a b12 deficiany and got 6 injections last 2 weeks. So I was hoping a lot of physical symptoms would of faded they did a little but now im back to sq one. So all bloods bar that came back ok. I had mri for a head pain 2years ago and was fine. But I guess I am worried about other muscle diseases or nerve ones now, i think that this time all the pins and needles in legs(constantly not just through a panic attack i mean daily all day but then somedays are better than others) is this silly of me after bloods etc came back ok and mri from few yrs ago?
I havent felt relaxed for a long time i mean odd day i feel bit better i can a little but in hindsight i havent.
The hardest thing for me this time. My life baring a good relationship is really good business going well(when i am able to work) love where i live very lucky to have good friends and family etc. I have done everything my power this time stayed positive for months and months. Tried to meditiate, remember cbt coping, ask for help, eat well and just generally try to help myself. But lately im at wits end and so lost.
Been to a and e twice for the pins and needles in legs and they said its nothing to worry about(tho didnt do any tests) docs tell me its anxiety but what do I do to try get better than I am already doing?
I put in for more cbt and im 7mth into a 9mth waiting list. The only thing i stayed off was meds as found them hard when coming off them last time. Although there is a big % of me that knows this is anxiety I still think (irrationally knowing what i know) what if its MS what it its xxxx. And at times of panic and the constant illness and fatigue i struggle so bad to be rational and of sound mind.
So frustrating I look at people in street and think im so glad for you you dont have this. Its costing me things in life. I was a top poker player and had to quit more a less, other things have suffered i live life at 60%, it would be unfair to start a relationship with a girl now feeling like this, and im just totally out of ideas and at the moment i can honestly say it doesnt feel like this will ever go away.
Ive worked all week very hard which was at times so tough. As i lie here typing my full body is aching, odd pains sensations pins and needles up legs and feet and im boiling up, dizzy numb hands esp left and stiff neck( i may or not be a little ill at moment also I just cant tell what is what anymore : (
I just know I cant deal with feeling ill or anything to do with health when I feel ok i feel fine and so happy. But sadly that doesnt happen at all now and i cant even exercise ive tried 5times and i feel horrible after when it always used to help me.
Sorry if this sounded like i was whinging or complaining i just wanted to see if this sounds familiar or just not right. I have panic attacks all day not just 20mins like it says online.
Thanks for reading if you got this far and any msgs help suggestions would be great. I think i may have to try meds again.