Simon_
19-03-17, 23:57
Hi all, I am not really sure what I am hoping to get from this or if this is just kind of a vent.
A bit of background, I have suffered with anxiety for around 13 years. Managed fairly well for a decade. I take sertraline although I do not like medication but have taken it in one form or another the whole time.
I do not get as anxious anymore but feel very low on a regular basis. Outwardly my life seems great. I am married with two children, an accomplished amateur sports person, I have a very good job which affords me a nice lifestyle.
None of that seems to matter. I regularly feel like I want more and it's become a point of argument in my house that I am never happy with what I have. My biggest point of feeling low is looking back at years that have passed, old photos and remembering my childhood (although very happy times) fills me with total despair and hopelessness, sometimes I cannot even imagine how I can go through my whole life feeling like this. I just do not know what to do. I don't know how I can change my pattern of thought. Some times I feel motivated and buzzing, everything is going brilliantly then the next day, sometimes even a matter of hours later I feel hopeless and struggle to find the motivation for anything. I kind of just wante to put it out there to see if anyone can relate and what they have done to help. When I do get anxious it's about mine or my families health.
A bit of background, I have suffered with anxiety for around 13 years. Managed fairly well for a decade. I take sertraline although I do not like medication but have taken it in one form or another the whole time.
I do not get as anxious anymore but feel very low on a regular basis. Outwardly my life seems great. I am married with two children, an accomplished amateur sports person, I have a very good job which affords me a nice lifestyle.
None of that seems to matter. I regularly feel like I want more and it's become a point of argument in my house that I am never happy with what I have. My biggest point of feeling low is looking back at years that have passed, old photos and remembering my childhood (although very happy times) fills me with total despair and hopelessness, sometimes I cannot even imagine how I can go through my whole life feeling like this. I just do not know what to do. I don't know how I can change my pattern of thought. Some times I feel motivated and buzzing, everything is going brilliantly then the next day, sometimes even a matter of hours later I feel hopeless and struggle to find the motivation for anything. I kind of just wante to put it out there to see if anyone can relate and what they have done to help. When I do get anxious it's about mine or my families health.