emsjayne111
20-03-17, 08:59
Hi guys, I'm new to this forum so don't really know what to expect from it.
I guess I'm just looking for some support and a friendly ear to be honest.
I've suffered with anxiety for over 12 years now. I've always been a natural worrier but have also suffered panic attacks often in my life. I'm only 23 years old so feel this is all I've ever known. It's only since January this year I've took the big step to recovery and got myself the help I really need. I've started counselling and I am finding this good but so hard at the same time. I'm having to talk about my past which I still find difficult to accept myself as when I was 15 I was sexually assaulted and physically on number of occasions by a guy I was seeing at the time. I guess I've always blamed myself and felt guilt and shame for what happened to me. I've buried all this hurt for 8 years until I've finally admitted to myself that my relationships now is suffering and I've not yet been able to move past this awful event in my life.
I'm also on sertraline I started over 9 weeks ago on 50mg and was off work signed off with anxiety and depression and it was such dark days with the awful side effects that came with sertaline. After 2 weeks I did feel better than I was. But I then went back to work and had to deal with the pressure of work life and 4 weeks to being back I took the hard choice of upping them to 100mg this was over a week ago now and I just feel so low and depressed again. I haven't gone to work today because panic as set in & it's caused me and my partner to argue now as he just doesn't understand mental health. He does try and I think we are getting some where and then something like this happens.
I just need a friendly hug and kind words along my journey. I just really hope there is another side which is brighter than this feeling right now.
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Thanks
Emily x
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I guess I'm just looking for some support and a friendly ear to be honest.
I've suffered with anxiety for over 12 years now. I've always been a natural worrier but have also suffered panic attacks often in my life. I'm only 23 years old so feel this is all I've ever known. It's only since January this year I've took the big step to recovery and got myself the help I really need. I've started counselling and I am finding this good but so hard at the same time. I'm having to talk about my past which I still find difficult to accept myself as when I was 15 I was sexually assaulted and physically on number of occasions by a guy I was seeing at the time. I guess I've always blamed myself and felt guilt and shame for what happened to me. I've buried all this hurt for 8 years until I've finally admitted to myself that my relationships now is suffering and I've not yet been able to move past this awful event in my life.
I'm also on sertraline I started over 9 weeks ago on 50mg and was off work signed off with anxiety and depression and it was such dark days with the awful side effects that came with sertaline. After 2 weeks I did feel better than I was. But I then went back to work and had to deal with the pressure of work life and 4 weeks to being back I took the hard choice of upping them to 100mg this was over a week ago now and I just feel so low and depressed again. I haven't gone to work today because panic as set in & it's caused me and my partner to argue now as he just doesn't understand mental health. He does try and I think we are getting some where and then something like this happens.
I just need a friendly hug and kind words along my journey. I just really hope there is another side which is brighter than this feeling right now.
[emoji304]☁️[emoji177]
Thanks
Emily x
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