Conrad
21-03-17, 02:22
Hello.
My name is Connor, I'm 19 years and I have been suffering from anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember, throughout my life, all my failures, mistakes are all attributed to my lack of confidence, I literally have zero confidence in myself, I struggle to interact with people and when I do I find myself putting on this transparent façade that everyone can see through, I find it incredibly hard interacting with people be it family or close friends, if I find myself in a group of people, I don't talk, I don't acknowledge them or so they think, but I feel like I have no social skills whatsoever. If I'm out with a friend and he makes a joke, I can't laugh, I feel no amusement, I feel like some emotionless husk incapable of interacting with society. The reason I joined today, is that soon I start a new job, and I'm hoping that I will be able to change my life and build some confidence so I can finally start living, I just recently left my girlfriend, I had been with her on and off practically two years, but through the course of our relationship I began realising as perfect as she was for me, she was a safety blanket to help me stay emotionally stable, and that sort of dependence and reliance is hardly healthy, so about a week ago I told her it was over, I just want to be able to find some confidence in myself and depend on myself, the reason I'm joining today is that I would like to talk to some like minded people and hear how they overcame they're anxiety and see what tips you can offer, I'm starting work at an company that deals In credit repayments and the money is very good but the work involves interacting with customer's over the phone and helping them find a solution and honestly I'm petrified, I keep thinking how am I going to do this when I can't even order a pizza without panicking. Anyway rant over good to be here.
My name is Connor, I'm 19 years and I have been suffering from anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember, throughout my life, all my failures, mistakes are all attributed to my lack of confidence, I literally have zero confidence in myself, I struggle to interact with people and when I do I find myself putting on this transparent façade that everyone can see through, I find it incredibly hard interacting with people be it family or close friends, if I find myself in a group of people, I don't talk, I don't acknowledge them or so they think, but I feel like I have no social skills whatsoever. If I'm out with a friend and he makes a joke, I can't laugh, I feel no amusement, I feel like some emotionless husk incapable of interacting with society. The reason I joined today, is that soon I start a new job, and I'm hoping that I will be able to change my life and build some confidence so I can finally start living, I just recently left my girlfriend, I had been with her on and off practically two years, but through the course of our relationship I began realising as perfect as she was for me, she was a safety blanket to help me stay emotionally stable, and that sort of dependence and reliance is hardly healthy, so about a week ago I told her it was over, I just want to be able to find some confidence in myself and depend on myself, the reason I'm joining today is that I would like to talk to some like minded people and hear how they overcame they're anxiety and see what tips you can offer, I'm starting work at an company that deals In credit repayments and the money is very good but the work involves interacting with customer's over the phone and helping them find a solution and honestly I'm petrified, I keep thinking how am I going to do this when I can't even order a pizza without panicking. Anyway rant over good to be here.