Stressed32
02-04-17, 17:47
I am 39 years old. I was 32 when I began to suffer from Health Anxiety after the grueling loss of a baby. It was then in that moment that I began to not trust my body. After that, I had Aids for about 2 years...and that is how I came to Google. Once I had my daughter, it continued but w different diseases bc I had 3 HIV tests done in my pregnancy w her- so couldn't worry there anymore.
For about 5 years now I have had Cancer- in every part of my body- and in many places more than once. I am currently suffering from my 4th brain tumor and have graduated to the point of not even having symptoms- I have no headaches ect. I had my eyes checked in Nov in a comprehensive eye exam and all was perfect. But- I have a bran tumor none the less. I am not sure if I am healing or if I have just lived w the anxiety long enough to actually be able to just laugh at myself.
I am to the point where I know the thoughts are just anxiety- they are not real- they will pass- and it is really funny when I say aloud- Hi- I have a bran tumor with no symptoms...
Just wanted to share to see if reaching this place where worry becomes so mundane that you finally say screw it and laugh out loud is part of it all....
For about 5 years now I have had Cancer- in every part of my body- and in many places more than once. I am currently suffering from my 4th brain tumor and have graduated to the point of not even having symptoms- I have no headaches ect. I had my eyes checked in Nov in a comprehensive eye exam and all was perfect. But- I have a bran tumor none the less. I am not sure if I am healing or if I have just lived w the anxiety long enough to actually be able to just laugh at myself.
I am to the point where I know the thoughts are just anxiety- they are not real- they will pass- and it is really funny when I say aloud- Hi- I have a bran tumor with no symptoms...
Just wanted to share to see if reaching this place where worry becomes so mundane that you finally say screw it and laugh out loud is part of it all....